27/04/2025
My Red Flags
If you ever fall in love with someone like me
There’s something you should know before you get too close.
I don’t come wrapped in warnings, or with ribbons and bows.
I come as glass barely holding shape,
as a heart that’s learned more about endings than it ever did about escape.
I was built on trust issues stitched into my skin—
each scar a souvenir from where belief wore thin.
I learned early that love wasn’t solid ground,
it was a trapdoor waiting for the right weight to bring it down.
So now, when someone leans in too far,
I flinch.
I grip tighter than I should,
I call too much, love too hard,
then the moment I see even the smallest crack—
a missed word, a distant laugh—
I start packing my heart without ever moving back.
It’s not just romantic love where I draw my lines—
I watch how you treat your people, your ties, your binds.
Because if you can’t hold them close, protect what’s yours,
how can I believe you won’t let me slip through the same cracked doors?
I’m not proud of it.
I know clinginess isn’t cute once it turns to fear,
once love starts feeling like a burden you didn’t volunteer.
I wish you could see it the way I live it:
every smile I give is an IOU I’m scared you’ll forget.
Every "I'm here for you" is a promise I expect you to regret.
Because underneath whatever you think you see—
the laughter, the loyalty, the poetry—
I’m just a ticking time bomb in a field of glass,
waiting for love to step wrong,
waiting for me to shatter,
waiting for you to pass.
You won’t notice the demons right away.
They’re quiet at first, polite even—
they wait for the day you call me "safe"
so they can smile and ask you if you meant it.
And when you realize you didn’t—
or maybe you did but you’re tired—
I’ll already be halfway gone,
blaming you for the fire.
So maybe you should go.
Maybe you should save yourself the ache,
the slow erosion,
the quiet heartbreak.
Or maybe you’ll stay.
And if you do, God bless the fools who love the broken,
who stay knowing the ground is already frozen.
Just… don’t promise forever.
Forever is too heavy for someone made of glass.
Just promise you’ll be careful—
if you must love me,
love me knowing I won’t last.
K!D