15/06/2022
Kopa le naganeleng bana. I came across thisš
Morning ladies,
I have been thinking a lot about the post from this weekend āWHY HAVE CHILDREN WITH A MARRIED MANā and would like to comment my experience.
I am a child of a married man, my mom has two children my older brother and I, both from different married man, Iāll speak for myself. I never knew my father even though we stayed 30km apartā¦we just never spoke about it until I was a frustrated teenager and always cried my mom started lying saying heās dead then jiki jiki she said heās a homeless drunakrd I shouldnāt want to know him then finally she was begging me not to want to know him sharp, when I was 24 I put my foot down, I cried because I longed for a father in my life, she finally told me heās married and gave me his contacts.
We had a relationship for a few months which was only whatsapp ONLY never a phone call, we only met once thatās it! A secret relationship(like my moms relationship with him).
The relationship died like mjolo relationships lol we just stopped talking and both deleted nrs⦠it hurts being rejected and being a secret even now in my adult age I struggle with relationships, Iām in constant need of a manās protection and love like a father loves his daughter.
My father NEVER even mentioned meeting my half siblings, I too never initiated it because I donāt want to break another womanās heart.
My relationship with mom is okay , but deep deep down Iām stuggling to forgive her, she doesnāt know it but Iām trying to find ways to forgive her.
Now Iām 28 she keeps telling me I should just make a baby with anyone because Iām working. Mind you sheās still dating another married man now. (But asikho lapho) Itās hard for me to forgive her for what she did, I canāt even confront her cause itās her life and i I canāt judge. Itās hard to respect her, hence I choose to distance myself yet she tries to call me everyday. I sometimes wish my aunt was my mom.
deep down I hate what she did to me,not sure if I hate her. Also, Iām Not sure about my brother. She told me we share the same father but when I was with my āfatherā he told me he only has 5kids (he didnāt include my mothers son) my my heart still breaks Iāve never told my brother or my mother that āfatherā didnāt count my brother as his children.
We donāt talk about our paternity at all. I just wonder what type of trauma my brother is dealing with personally, (we are close but donāt talk about this) If itās worse than mine or similar. But on the outside we are happy hey.
Mom never even apologised, she gave birth and left us kwa gogo and we only lived together when I was approaching high school.
I have childhood trauma based on that, I will never never have a child with a married man and if my husband makes a child outside Iāll definitely leave him.
Financially Sheās not a bad mom, sheās working with her own property and assets even has two cars, sheās doing well in life. Our relationship looks good but Mina Iām having personal issues with her that she doesnāt know about and Iām not able to articulate them to her. She tried to take us to good schools but I need(Ed) a father in my life.
Just shedding some light on the perspective from the child, Iām not looking for sympathy but I urge women to really think and think hard for the children. Theyāre the most hurt ones in this whole mess. As a mother you can move on and get another man, bastard kids canāt move on and just get a father whoās wont keep them a secret. Angilwi! please donāt bash me I donāt have a father