01/06/2020
Theater of my mind
My mental diary and conversations with myself
I just want to share how I feel about Mental illness on the right side of my brain. If your family does not support you on your illness, my condolences. I have enjoyed the full support of my family and never for that I am truly grateful. I can still recall the day I had a mental breakdown.
It felt as if my brain had broken into two pieces. It was a scary notion to contemplate that my brain was broken. I knew that I needed it to be fixed somehow. I need a complete and proper brain. I determined that I needed to do all in my power to get it fixed. After all, it’s my brain and therefore nobody else’s responsibility. If I were ever to get help, I had to take accountability for my mental breakdown. Self-pity swallowed me up as I searched for sympathy from those around me. Only my immediate family members showed me the sympathy I craved…but that’s what family is supposed to do. Isn’t it?
Even though I still feel like I’m commenting from a “broken brain”, I want to encourage people like myself suffering from mental illness to stop being a victim writhing in self-pity. The only way to destroy the monsters of bad thoughts, insecurity, self-deprecating feelings, and all such negative thoughts is to take it one day at a time and address each challenge as it presents itself. As soon as you become aware that you have a mental illness (e.g. depression, bipolar or any other mental related illnesses), I urge you to reach out and seek help. Seek out help and avoid many self-destructive actions that result when one is not getting the appropriate treatment for their condition. In the end we not only hurt ourselves but our loved ones as well.
The road to recovery and defeating mental illness starts with simply becoming aware on what you are feeding your mind daily. What you are feeding your mind? Take little steps every day, don't and you can expect an Oprah to come out of your life. We are not on earth to live half a life. A life half-lived is a life wasted. We should embrace our flaws and live in full and enjoy life while we have the opportunity. So get help, choose joy not misery...live, love, laugh...repeat! If you know someone who is experiencing a mental challenge, support them or go mind your own business, they are not a comedy show. No one is leaving this life alive..... I have been sharing the left side of my brain, please see my all other posts.
