09/23/2025
Some people play a role in your life. That inspires you to be better to break cycles. And sometimes those cycles are painful and scary, but in the end, you find gratitude for the strength that others lend you when you are failing to have strength on your own. And one day years down the line you turn back and realize it was you teaching yourself lessons, all along…
That your own role in your suffering brought you towards people who were similar to you. And those people educated you about yourself and your own cycles. And that’s the beauty of human connection. To truly see one another, affect one another and inspire one another into growth.
It makes me grateful to be human, to suffer, to connect, to experience, to learn. It’s beautiful, really. The ways we try and keep our loved ones or ourselves safe and end up just hurting each other. Broken things can always be repaired, or even completely remade. The people in my life are proof of that. I’ve seen so many overcome, adversity and confusion and darkness. And while I am not perfect, I seek to do the same every day and I’m inspired when I see it around me.
Now, looking back, and finding that we were all just angry at ourselves. And pushing each other through that anger toward betterment. As we passed around the blame… we all became something new. I’m going to step out of the cycle… but I want it to be known that I revere it for its magic. I’m grateful for the ways. I became better because of the pain I have endured. For the ways that the drama pulled me in and out of my own self to push and pull me towards what I was becoming.
I’m grateful for the mistakes I made. I’m grateful for the mistakes others made. Because it made me what I am.
Let this act of love close the cycle for me, let this be my final goodbye to the way as I was. Let this open the door to receive a new and better way. A new and soft life for all of us.