02/05/2024
How do we reconnect with our talent and our art when we feel so disrupted by conditions out of our control?
The pandemic created separation from one another, from our own routine, ambitions, momentum. Shortly thereafter, SAG endured a long strike, and returning to normal has been an uphill battle for many.
harbors resentments, frustrations, anxieties, or feeling trapped while we internally plead for some sort of luck to occur to align our intentions. Maybe some of you chant, pray, meditate, or simply sit in traffic and hope.
It demands sheer commitment to take these emotional toxins and allow them to be the lifeline to your talent rather than a death sentence of our art. We might feel trapped, stuck, lost in the abyss of not knowing how to move forward. But if we know how to go inwards, to be brave and courageous to admit our fears, rejections, resentments, then we thereby free ourselves which gives way to all of the freedom, beauty, talent, intelligence, and all of the natural gifts you own to light your way.
In class, we have hundreds of exercises for this very reason where the actor works individually on their own unique instrument so that they are always using their talent instead of denying or silencing it. We are often under a significant misunderstanding: that our low energy, lack of care, enthusiasm, or the passion that seems to have been evicted from our souls is a permanent situation. Whereas in reality, it is the very emotions mentioned above that are holding the passion and talent hostage, but only temporarily.
Our subconscious actually believes it is protecting us by tiring us, subduing our mood and energy so that we cannot confront these emotional enemies; or emotional antigens as if they were a disease infiltrating our emotional immune system. But if we actually do feel these emotions their full capacity, we exorcise and cast them out until they arrive again from the next crisis, the next person who goes off the grid, the next person who did not text you back, the job that is sometimes intolerable, or in any range of conditions that will offset our emotional equilibrium.
Scream into a pillow, throw a tantrum on the floor, journal your deepest fears and regrets or whatever is on your mind to the fullest extent. In class we have the stage to provide opportunities for actors to release these demons, and what manifests out of this is a class of students witnessing the talent that each artists uniquely possesses.
There is no way around life, there is no way around confronting where we are in reality, because it is reality. Or we can continue to sift through the abyss clinging to hope but without action. Relying only on the forces of nature may take a very long time for some sort of goodwill-catalyst to strike lightning to shake someone out of artistic starvation. But others are being starved then of your talents and a precious part of you within is begging you to share this talent with others; for it is the foundation of human connection.
It is very necessary but all too uncommon that actors do not get to work on themselves enough in classes, the instrument. This is why Stanislavsky’s first book was called An Actor’s work on himself/herself, later translated to An Actor Prepares.
It is crucial to always have a safe and supportive venue to always be you, but also continue to enhance what it means to be you with the encouragement, support, and growth that occurs on stage and on set. We must continue to be heard, but not only to be heard by others but to hear ourselves so that the artist within never falls on deaf ears. Even expressing your thoughts, feelings, views, in a group such as this can be so conducive because it allows us to share and express and thereby building the habit of speaking up, being seen, revealing, being courageous to stand behind our thoughts or to even have them challenged. The common theme is vulnerability, it is from here we truly allow ourselves to be seen. So much of this art is how allowing will you be to allow yourself to be seen?