04/30/2025
Greetings from me… at three weeks after my back surgery.
This photo was taken a few days ago after my check-up at the Dr’s. On the way home I asked Peter to stop at the beautiful Whitemarsh Memorial Park where I hoped to find a row of cherry trees in bloom. They were perfect!
After I soaked in their pink glory, Peter walked with me so I could practice with my cane. (Yes, it’s pink!) I’m graduating from my wheelchair and walker.
It was a beautiful day!
I’m slowly recuperating, although it’s been a struggle due to the terrible nerve pain in my leg that just won’t go away. Unfortunately, it’s worse now than before the surgery, which is a pretty defeating feeling. Some patients’ nerve pain is immediately alleviated after surgery. But for others, like me, it can take time - up to a year or more - for these damaged nerves to repair. It’s a long game.
My doctor assures me that this is normal, and that the biggest thing I need is TIME. It takes time for the nerves to settle down and repair. He said the second thing I need is to keep walking, working up to 30 minutes at a stretch. So, I walk through the pain. I will do everything I can to get to a better place. PT starts at 8 weeks, and I’m very anxious for that.
Some days I’m positive and hopeful, staying in the moment, practicing patience and gratitude, solving the day’s problems. But other days the fears and worries creep in, I mourn for lost time, the worry I’m causing others, and the things I can not do that I desperately want to… so, the tears flow, and the pain wins.
But my hope is that by being with my feelings and releasing those tears, that I’m making room for healing and joy.
The weather has been fantastic lately! It’s been a tonic for me, as are the encouraging thoughts, prayers and messages from friends. Thank you, all. I’m grateful for each one of you!❤️🩹