Wordsfromnatalie

02/01/2023

Christmas feels like Halloween
Christmas feels like Halloween, constantly feeling like I’m stuck in between two separate worlds.One world is where I’m constantly reliving Friday the 13 and i just constantly dying on the inside and out.The other world I am pretending to be living out the most joyous time of my life, where every day is Christmas and I’m the gift that just keeps on giving until there is nothing left, but the blood of my tears. Tears that I’ve cried into my pillow for my daughter won’t hear my screams. Tears of the memory from when he walked out my life. Tears from me wondering why am I still alive. Christmas feels like Halloween is not just a title, it’s an actual feeling that I wish would end, but it won’t.

08/20/2022

Self love is the best love

08/18/2022

If You Get Caught Cheating
One night of pleasure, cost you years of pain and agony. The reason behind of what you did, honestly doesn’t mean a damn thing to me. Obviously you must’ve forgotten that I’m a firm believer in karma, and you must’ve clearly forgotten the way how I truly get down. Having ni**as, and bi***es sliding in my dms, wondering if they can have a taste of my sweet spot. Having me moaning until I say stop. And you will never know when the dirty deed would had happen. So if I was you I would pipe down, because you never know who juices you’re tasting on my lips.

08/17/2022

If you from the city that never back down, then you know some of these locations.

07/06/2022

July 5,2022
Dear future husband,
I guess you can say that I’ve been fine, since the last time I wrote you… S**t who am I kidding, I have not been fine. It feels like every other day, I am silently having a mental break down that I can’t show. I am dealing with the stress of my daughter not being happy about her dad, and then trying to find another new job. I don’t know any other way to put it but, it feels like I am spiraling out of control and no one knows it. I know that it will get better, but my question is win you know? No one can really tell me the answer to that question. I know that I do think about our future a lot. A lot more than what I should be. Sometimes I am starting to believe that we will never meet, or the day of me ever getting married will happen. I don’t want to pressure no one into anything, but what person don’t want their happy ending. I know that I do, but I just have to be patient, and yes that is a struggle for me lol. But hey, I am trying. It’s getting late, and I still have to finish my dinner. I will write again soon my love.

Sincerely,
Your future wife

07/06/2022

July 5,2022
Dear future husband,
I guess you can say that I’ve been fine, since the last time I wrote you… S**t who am I kidding, I have not been fine. It feels like every other day, I am silently having a mental break down that I can’t show. I am dealing with the stress of my daughter not being happy about her dad, and then trying to find another new job. I don’t know any other way to put it but, it feels like I am spiraling out of control and no one knows it. I know that it will get better, but my question is win you know? No one can really tell me the answer to that question. I know that I do think about our future a lot. A lot more than what I should be. Sometimes I am starting to believe that we will never meet, or the day of me ever getting married will happen. I don’t want to pressure no one into anything, but what person don’t want their happy ending. I know that I do, but I just have to be patient, and yes that is a struggle for me lol. But hey, I am trying. It’s getting late, and I still have to finish my dinner. I will write again soon my love.

Sincerely,
Your future wife

04/11/2022

Daddy’s girl

04/10/2022

My unborn son and husband will be just like my daddy

04/02/2022

04/02/2022

Link is in biography. Anything helps, and would be greatly appreciate

01/01/2022

Well it’s that time again, it’s almost time to enter the new year. 2021 has been one hell of a year. From dealing with the last part of virtual school with my daughter, to working day in and day out to provide for her. It has been hard and yet I found a way to make it through. God has finally blessed me with my first apartment. Then when you least expect it, bad news hit my family like you have no idea. But we found a way to push through it, and still pushing through it. Life has been handing out knock out punches every single day, and I mean all the way to the point where I was slowly pushed out of my job, by not giving  me enough hours to make ends meet. To them playing off my mental health, but here I am still smiling. It took me years, and I mean years to have a genuine smile in this picture. And proud to admit that I have two special that gives me a reason to smile. And I will continue to keep smiling, no matter what. I just pray that 2022  will bring in nothing but pure joy, and happiness. I pray that I continue to learn how to love with a honest and pure heart. So glad that this year is ending, and so happy to be walking into a new beginning. Fair well to 2021

01/01/2022

Dec 31,2021
Dear future husband,
I know it’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. Truth is, writing you a letter every single day isn’t working out to well for me, as you can tell lol. I’ve also been preoccupied with my male friend that I’ve been writing to you about. As of right now, he’s a little bit more than just a friend. Things have become kind of serious with us. Something that was just supposed to be a fling, is turning into something that I would never expect that could happen. I have slowly broke down my walls and let love in. As you know, it wasn’t something that I’d planned, it just kind of happen. So now with this being the last day of the year, I’m praying that things continue to go well between us. I pray that we can continue to learn more about each other. He makes me happy, and most importantly he makes my daughter happy. I mean, how could I ask for more from this man. I know that he may not be you, or maybe he could be. Truth is, only time can tell. Well it’s getting kind of late love.I promise I would do better at writing you more. Be safe, wherever you may be.
Sincerely,
Your future wife