06/11/2026
This is me being very brave and sharing my first-ever portrait painting.
I’ll be honest—this was HARD.
Yes, I know how to paint. Yes, I know how to mix colors. But portrait painting? That’s a completely different game in a completely different ballpark.
Going into this piece, I was inspired by the bold, loose brushwork of artists like Alpay Efe . In my head, I knew exactly how I wanted it to look. But when the paint hit the canvas and things didn’t turn out the way I imagined, I got frustrated and started beating myself up.
Then I stepped back and reminded myself of two things:
A) I’m not a portrait artist.
B) This is literally my first time attempting a portrait.
Nobody masters a new subject on their first try.
So instead of focusing on everything that needs fixing, I’m choosing to celebrate the fact that I had the courage to try something new. There are definitely areas I want to rework, but the more I look at it, the more I’m starting to like it.
Growth happens when we allow ourselves to be beginners again.
So here it is—my first portrait. Not perfect, but progress.