10/21/2026
Reposted from my personal page:
I need to get something off my chest.
There’s been a lot of people making s**tty comments, and claims, in both my personal life as well as my streaming page, when it comes to people donating to help me out.
First off, if you are well off enough, healthy enough, and have made no mistakes in life, I am beyond happy for you. Feel good you’ve never had to struggle.
I was born with a terrible illness and psychological problem. It wasn’t diagnosed until well after I wan an adult. This illness came with defiance issues, addiction problems, and most of all, a lack of understanding of how money worked in any way shape or form. I was compulsive, reckless, and lost. And I had no clue why.
Along came my wife, and she stood by me and said “we fail together.” She has NEVER once told me my illness made me less of a person. She never told me she couldn’t handle me at my worst. She just stuck around and helped every way possible. The fact that I’m alive at all is solely due to her.
Now, imagine after that kind of loyalty, a really rough patch came along, where you got so sick you couldn’t work for a month, bar two days. And only four days out of this month so far. And bills got behind. So far behind that a friend sent you what amounted to an entire paycheck, and made sure you survived. Then imagine everyone else having an opinion without knowing anything. Imagine hearing people you assumed cared about you, and fellow streamers who were your friends, now badmouthing you because your situation has become dire. Yes, I made a lot of mistakes. Yes, it has ruined my outlook going forward. Yes, we don’t sleep through the night because we’re constantly worried about how we make it work. Is that not enough embarrassment? Is that not though humiliation and punishment?
I ask for donations from my streamers and friends because my love for my wife is greater than my self-esteem and image. Neither of us make much money. All we have is love, laughter, and a really good computer (that I got before all this.)
I haven’t even streamed lately due to illness and embarrassment. It’s embarrassing that fellow streamers and viewers who are my friends have to see me begging for money while we figure life out.
However, we’ve never ever ever messaged people directly and said “give us money”. That has literally never fu***ng happened. Ever.
We’re struggling. If that’s embarrassing for you, don’t be my friend.
If you think you are better than me for having a more successful life, don’t be my friend.
If you think everyone who needs a hand out is a piece of s**t, don’t be my friend. God forbid it ever happen to you.
If you’re hear to feel good about yourself at my expense, don’t be my friend.
Plain and simple. Just walk. Just pack up your comments and s**tty attitude and f**k off.
We are good people, and we are trying. And if that humiliates you, look in the mirror.
We will never ask you or single you out to support us. But if people who love us and want to, to donate a couple bucks, then I’ll continue posting my donation information. Here and on Funblender, while we dig ourselves out.
If that’s a problem, I understand. Don’t be my friend.
I have my wife. And I will continue to look like a “sad poor f**ker” as long as it helps me take care of her, and keep a roof and lights, and medications (which are insane BTW).
Thanks for putting me in another embarrassing moment. Keep your comments to yourself. Be a s**tty person with other s**tty people. Don’t say one thing to our faces and another to your other s**tty people. Just go talk s**t about us and leave us alone! 🙂 walk away, it’s that easy. We won’t even be mad at you.
Life has been miserable lately, I’m not letting anyone else make it worse. Hard enough already.
Two Rivers, and the world in general, need to grow the f**k up.