Tales from a Gen Xer

07/12/2024

Depression is a real b*tch sometimes. Then you find this wooden pog from your therapist, and are reminded: everything is temporary.

03/09/2024

I often dream the same things every night: moving from one dwelling to another or city to another, trying to get courage to break it off with my now ex-husband, or working old jobs like in salons. It gets old, stressful, and I figure it's some unresolved 💩 or ways of dealing with daily stress.

Every now and then, I dream of a most dreamy partner. Usually a male, not necessarily overly masculine. This morning he looked like a young Bill Skarsgard only less thin. I was younger, but the same spirit. I don't even know what my appearance was. It didn't matter. It felt amazing to feel loved and wanted and valued. It actually hurts that it wasn't real.

I've been single a long time. I do enjoy my alone time immensely. But it'd be cool to meet someone into me for being me. Dating apps are not for me. Literally no one but creeps and bots message me, and no one replies to my attempts. I have to meet someone organically but geezes.

Do I give the cute, younger guy at Trader Joe's my number? I've been looking for places that people like me would hangout...

12/31/2023

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Excuse me for this being a bit long and me being slightly angrier than normal. It’s been a tough year!

Firstly, I wish I could hug every one of you and thank you personally for continuing to support us, in this crazy dream of making clothes that fit everyone at every size that are ethically made and affordable, as well as the tandem journey of representation and inclusion. We want to show the world as it really is, not a horrifically selective and sanitised sliver of it. I know we are far from perfect, but we will continue to push and push together to change the world in these small ways.

All through 2023 we’ve looking at ways of funding what you want from us, more stock ordered, quicker lead times, more availability and it’s been eye opening. The investment community just don’t see anything is wrong:

‘Clothes fit fine, if they fit better everyone would sell less’ ‘What’s wrong with ethical clothes being expensive? It’s just more margin!’, ‘Why do you have so many fat people on your website? You’ll put thin people off!’, ‘I don’t have a problem finding clothes so why would anyone else’.

It’s literally like they don’t see us - women, gender diverse people, people of different sizes, different ethnicities, people with different abilities, the neuro spicy, people with tattoos and crazy coloured hair and people who just believe that you deserve to be comfortable in what you wear.

We are still seen as different and alternative when in reality we are the silent unseen majority.

Something I am determined to change.

We are not going to stop fighting.
We aren’t going to give up.
We won’t stop. It’s just too important.

I don’t want future generations hating themselves in the way we did because we thought our bodies were wrong, and not the clothes.

So, remember with the onslaught of pressure coming from all those who seek to profit from self-hatred - your body is yours and it’s perfect. You don’t need to be a different size, more accomplished, prettier, funnier, more well-read. You just need to be you and you don’t need to change a thing.

Being an entrepreneur is tough, being a female one is tougher. I can’t count the number of times people have asked if I wouldn’t rather have a ‘symbolic role’ rather than actually running the business and it’s not just me it’s a pattern of female entrepreneurs being ousted from their businesses, replaced with men from ‘traditional’ backgrounds who ‘know’ how to run a business ‘properly’. I believe it’s possible to run a business that genuinely has a positive impact on society and the world.

More businesses that do good are the key to making society fairer and putting the environment at less risk. If we run businesses in exactly the same way we always have, we’ll get the same horrific results. We have to do things differently.

I think it’s really important we have more businesses owned and run by members of the communities they serve, and their are some amazing ones out there, businesses like (see comments for L1NKs) Spark Company (the most thought provoking t shirts), Champo (the only reason I have any hair after having my second baby), Cutter & Squidge (sheer indulgent yumminess) and Topple and Burn (swear your opinions as jewellery) - I’d love it if you’d share yours too and we can see if we can give them all a little boost.

Despite what the government says the price of food and energy is astronomical it’s almost impossible to make ends meet and it’s in times like these people become more entrepreneurial to fill those gaps, and I want the new generation of entrepreneurs to have a better experience than I’ve had. So, if you are thinking of starting your own business and ever need any help I’m here for you - you can get hold of me on

[email protected].

Thank you so much for listening to my rant, I honestly couldn’t keep going every day without the incredible love and support you give Snag. Every time I read a comment or review talking about the difference our clothes have made to someone’s life it reminds me that all of the crap is absolutely worth it. I don’t think any of us is sorry to see the back of 2023, but I wish love and acceptance to each and every one of you for 2024, may it be the year we really start making the world a better place for the next generation.

(Little Kalliope enjoying raspberries! I wish you this much joy in 2024)

12/24/2023

She's done. This was my first taxidermy rat, project took longer than I intended. My little punk witch rat, in her magical spell room.

12/07/2023

What does self-care mean for you?

Waking up everyday, choosing to get out of bed. Doing dishes. Taking meds. Resist going back to bed after breakfast. Taking the pups on a walk. Listening to my favorite music. Watching K9 demos. Seeing the chiropractor. Creating. Making myself laugh. Doing a load of laundry. Cleaning a doom pile. Donating things for the animal shelter. Asking for help. Helping others where appreciated. Advocating for myself. Showing up authentically, even if it pi**es off others.

10/25/2023

One of my close friends in Toronto, sent me a care package full of patches, art, stickers, ans a cute little unicorn clock. New bands to listen to, patches for my battle hoodie! 🤘🏻🖤🤘🏻

08/17/2023

Therapy hit hard today.

08/07/2023

I love this podcast. This particular episode is great on how to deal with folks with avoidant attachment style. I default to anxious attachment, but can sometimes be avoidant when processing feelings and thoughts. It's part of being an introvert.

Listen to this episode from Beyond Bitchy: Mastering the Art of Boundaries on Spotify. This episode is for anyone who needs to learn more about boundaries, but I have a special announcement today for listeners who are betrayed partners. The Friday after this episode airs, I'll be starting a start a...

08/06/2023

Nothing really relieves stress more for me than anxiety cleaning. While doing water changes on these tanks, I vacuumed this ancient basement, cleaned the cat boxes, shoo'ed the spiders, and took out garbage. Yes, after I had a gym workout. 🙄

Chatted with a friend and relieved something off my chest. It was weighing heavy and I didn't realize how bad it was.

I have a lifetime behavior holding s**t in. I'm getting better about releasing that which ails me but man it's hard. A lifetime of thinking my feelings weren't important enough. It's a terrible pattern of behavior, fawning and burying.

Through therapy, I discovered stress and anxiety display themselves in my gastro system. Nausea. Feeling like I drank several energy drinks in a row. Waking up with extreme nausea and cold sweats. My skin crawls.

These turtles are spoiled.

On the Spotify: Rancid catalog. ☠️🤘🏻

08/06/2023

Eff you anxiety.

Went to the gym to try to burn it away. To do something for me. It helped for the 45 minutes I was there.

Started working on my cardio again. I have cardio-induced asthma and I'm a bit over it. 10 minutes jogging on the treadmill, and then kettle bells & dumb bells.

My therapist asked me if I felt alone or lonely and I couldn't really define which or both. I'm so tired of being emotionally lonely. I think I've done my time. When my love languages are physical presence/contact, and Quality Time, it sucks being lonely. Alone.
Which is it?

I love hard. I invest myself. But it's not usually matched. I'm trying to find activities that get me out of the house so I can meet someone who deserves me.

So eff you anxiety.
Tomorrow is another day.