09/12/2026
Yesterday my whole world changed in a couple hours.
When I left for work I kissed Jaws about 100 times as I do every single day. And told him I loved him and I would see him when I get home.
At noon I got an emergency call from his dad that he was on his way to skowhegan with Jaws, and that Jaws was not OK.
Yesterday Jaws had what we can only assume was a catastrophic brain event, such as possibly a clot to the brain. This was something he could not be saved from and we had to let him go. It came out of nowhere.
Jaws has NEVER been a dog to me. Since the day I met him I have been so madly in love with him. Nothing will ever be the same. I looked at him and saw a little man. He was the closest thing ill ever have to a child. I know some people can not understand how similar the emotions can be. Please dont think I am detracting from true motherhood.
Predictably, I'm not handling this super well so PLEASE give me grace as I break down at work over the next few weeks or months. I did stay home today to try to get my s**t together. But plan to be back at work tomorrow.
You guys have always been so involved with Jaws, and so many of you ask me about how hes doing in a regular basis and its always meant so much to me. Thank you for caring. Our life is going to look a lot different now. Thankfully I have my mama girl and 5 babies to keep me occupied.
Thank you guys so much for following his journey and loving him from afar. Ill make an effort to share my other babies with you guys too.
