04/19/2015
In the time that I've been back in the Midwest I've seen a lot of changes...both in the landscape around me and inside myself. I've always loved that about this part of the country...there's a distinctive boundary between seasons and without a doubt a person can begin to sense when things are changing. Over the past 7 weeks I've spent a tremendous amount of time in and around the landscape...harvesting timber, milling beams, walking trees. I've always known from a young age that the landscape of this region impacted me...when I was a teenager I began to feel an incredible connection to the land and to the James River Valley...I enjoy the space, the distance.
Naturally, and despite myself, I believe the landscape of this James River area has reflected itself in the frame of this building. I think that's just part of the artistic process where the body of work, if given the freedom to develop in its own way will emerge in the fashion in which it was intended to. My part is to just be here...to use my hands, to listen to the timbers, to work the beams. The character and personality of the frame will ultimately work itself out.
Last week we raised the barn. That was the big payoff for me. That morning when I got in my truck to start the day...I was overwhelmed and emotional. I couldn't stop thinking about the handful of times I truly thought I was going to give up on this project..."I can't do this, there's no way I can do this". Certain days I would have to bury my head and just dig in...most often when I was fighting or resisting something either about myself or about the timber. Acceptance is the key. The sooner I'm able to accept certain facts about myself and about the timber, the sooner I can move on and get busy creating again.