09/19/2022
My heart is fighting, resisting the belief that you’re gone. Its so painful to watch the memories like a film replay over in my mind. I haven’t been able to stop my tears for more than an hour at a time. I do not know how to accept that you’ve left us. You were not just one of my best friends, you were my big brother. I’ve struggled deeply to find humans who see me for who I truly am. You never made me question The love you held for me in your heart. You showed up for me, do you wanted to see me for me, And You did so well babe. I’d give anything to drive down a lonely highway with you again. 2 cancers with hearts heavy as stone, Sewn into our tattered sleeves, filling each other up and reminding each other that the world will just never understand us. We love too much, Our hearts are too big. What a profoundly magnificent heart you possessed, Rodney Melton. I was never Supposed to be writing a memorial for you. God damnit Love, You knew how to Irish goodbye swifter than any bastard this side of the Tennessee River… But you’re supposed to be there in the morning when I come knocking on your door. Nothing in this cruel fu***ng world could’ve ever prepared me to say goodbye to you forever. I’d trade all my wishes to look out and see you walking down my path shoutin’ “Damn it! Britnee Bones,Your so cool” and tell you I’d never seen a more handsome man in braids, Willie couldn’t hold a flame. You were the only person who knew my wild Love for Mamosa trees. You never got mad at me no matter how many times I’d make you pull over on the highway to smell them when they were in their fullest bloom. You’d ring me every late spring, just to tell me you saw the first mamosa tree of the comin summer and then tell me just where i could find it. I want to fill the sky with every memory I hold, and I promise I’ll hold you even closer with every passing day. You better bet, I’ll be meetin you in the unknown, Come my dying day.. Gonna kick your ass in a long awaited game of Hot dice babe. The story wasn’t meant to end here. I love you so fu***ng much, I am humbled beyond every star to have shared many years with you, My love. It may never feel real. Rest easy angel 🤍🕯☁️
