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Majentah Aquarious, San Diego, CA (2026)

07/19/2022

CW: medical terminology, medication and System abuse.

Suboxone Update: IT WORKED.

i’m actually emotional right now. i only needed 2 pills for the WHOLE DAY.

This entire fu***ng time. yay!! it worked!! now she can stop complaining about her period!!

yeah no i wish…for me it just opened Pandora’s box because *big breath*

I SPENT 10 YEARS OF MY FU***NG LIFE UNTIL YESTERDAY abusing acetaminophen.
I SPENT 10 YEARS OF MY LIFE choking down 6-12 pills a day because The doctors NEVER BELIEVED ME

and told me to “jUsT tAKE eXTRa MiDol when you need it”

i *ALWAYS* *NEED* It.

“the pain will get better when you’re older”

haha yeah…

now i have gut issues.

I got older, my pain got worse.

Because Egotism, and ageism GAVE ME A WHOLE NEW FU***NG MEDICAL PROBLEM💕

the cramps are still the same tho. never changed. 💕

I SPENT 10 YEARS *obliterating* my fu***ng stomach lining, and vomiting blood. THAT WAS NORMAL FOR ME

because I thought, and was told BY MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS that I had no other options.

i realize now, I didn’t have to go through any of that.

I only needed 2 suboxone.

this whole time.

WHY could nobody believe my pain?!

I HAD TO DESTROY MY BODY FOR A DECADE

A DECADE!!!!!!

WHY DID MY FU***NG FRIEND HAVE TO HELP ME?!!!
WHY?!!!!!!!!!

WHY CAN’T THESE FU***NG PEOPLE JUST DO THEIR JOBS?!

i have so many emotions right now.
most of them hopelessness.
i’m so grateful that my friend helped me…but now, there’s just another prescription to fight for.

if for some reason she can’t get it, or needs to keep it for herself, I know in my heart of hearts that next month, I’ll be back on Midol. Right where I started, melting my gut with acetaminophen.

because there is no other safe option.

Besides a prescription, and actual help.

but as I’ve been shown (and told) repeatedly, time and time again - I don’t count.

07/10/2022

CW: Ageism, Medical talk

Every day with ADHD is a constant battle between losing things, deleting things - forgetting where you were, and starting all over. (usually for 3rd time that day) all while trying to work through your executive dysfunction and ever depleting supplies of emotional resilience.

I do all of this while trying not to think about the fact that 10 mg of Adderall and an ongoing prescription for Effexor could *literally change my life* because when I tried it, it did.

75mg of a non-narcotic, a non-habit-forming substance on pretty much, the lowest possible dose.
and it’s taken me over three months.

( to this day I still don’t have an ongoing prescription😁 )

knowing I have to fight this hard to get something that isn’t even dangerous - and knowing the second I bring up anything to do with a stimulant they will immediately write me off due to family history and age...breaks you.

i’m chastised for being Naïve, then when I learn the terminology and chemistry, I watch in horror as the script flips instantly and the doctor takes my knowledge, as a *personal* assault to their ego.

they even get threatened by the specificity of the questions I ask and it makes them….Mad at me???

nobody told me I should eat with my medication the first time that I got it.

I was trying to ask questions and they got so sick of me, they basically just shoved it in my hands and told me to go.

yeah i’m still waiting on that *magical number*.
for when my age reflects that my OWN, LIVED *experience* can be taken seriously.

I know that the more that I push for my medication, the farther i am from getting it.

why is this ‼️YOUTH‼️ caring so much about meds?!! doesn’t she have boys to f**k or...homework?!”

yeah. euphoria has a lot of issues but at least it shows an honest perspective of what young people are handling.

I won’t experiment with my brain chemistry just because u don’t like the number on my ID.

that’s not “being a stubborn young person” that’s being an educated consumer.

If ur insecurity over losing ur license is so great, it’s causing u to abandon those that need u - you’re not a doctor, your a coward.
sincerely,
- someone who didn’t count.

06/22/2022

CW: Medication, Su***de and Abuse.

SUPER Vulnerable story time about attempting (and failing) to get mental health medication.

i’m at my wits end🥲😖💕

I have a post ban on Facebook for 22 hours. (The fact that I posted a silhouetted n**e photo had nothing to do with that, just the fact that I had the audacity to have a b**b in it.)

So, sorry . I saw your policy on allowing artistic nudity and got too excited.

i must have just had a “woman moment”😂💕 you see, when I’m n**e I just can’t find any other place to put my b**bs, then on my chest 😱

I should’ve just left them in my purse. rookie mistake, i’ll do better next time.

So I’m posting here. Things have been hard recently. If you have anything to share, My venmo, cashapp and payapl are all

04/01/2022

humble braggie yes - but also

If I can do this CONSISTENTLY with 100k followers on Tiktok and under 3000 on here, imagine what the bigger creators you follow could be doing.

Why aren’t we demanding that action action from them?

I’m not different - They could be doing this work.

Like F**k incremental change but let focus on that first word - increment.

a large group taking small steps to a shared goal.

This is a small (and very effective) step I take to ensure that brands I work with are being inclusive and equitable to people across the spectrum of gender identity.

Ei: the bare fu***ng minimum.

It’s not difficult, it’s a template.

ONE email that you write ONCE and patch in each time a brand pitches you bu****it.

It’s not hard, it’s not sticky - It’s easy.

If I can be dead broke and panicking financially while doing this, they can be rich in their Calabasas mansion and doing the same fu***ng thing and it’s time we demand them to.

All of our liberation is tied up ⬆️ collectively in each other’s Oppression.

It’s time we hold people to showing up💕

03/31/2022

I would ABSOLUTELY take this outfit out onto the streets….if my bike would stay on🥲💕

Donatella Donatella what to do with you girl!

She’s been some variation of a hot mess everyyy day since we brought her home from Santa Barbra in 2020.

Then again so have I so…there’s no room to judge😅

if it wasn’t for my friends, Doni wouldn’t have been able to get up and running at all - or even here in the first place.

She’ll be on the road again eventually. I’m excited to
learn how to fix more of her myself.

One day we’ll have that cross country road trip.
For now,

💕✨cat girl content✨💕

03/27/2022

Smoothies and simple self care today🌯🧋

…. it’s important to specify simple💯

in my world, today involves a lot of activities that fall into the box of what self care is traditionally framed as:

taking a break from work, stepping away from my phone, reconnecting with nature, and of course - a yummy non alcoholic drink.

She might do some yoga later

a face mask may be involved later in the evening- who knows.

The point is I am sooo grateful for days like these but self care isn’t always this laid back and aesthetic.

Most days it’s having the difficult conversations, eating when it’s hard to, standing up for your boundaries and facing other kinds of discomfort for your overall good and mental well being which is, fu***ng exhausting.

But it’s fu***ng important too.

03/24/2022

Docs and fancy dresses 🏁🌦

how connecting with my inner scene kid inspired a life long love of overdressing🌈💕

03/24/2022

What’s your big three?🌈Aquarius, Ta**us and Virgo rising for me♒️

Things should be making more sense now😂👌

03/23/2022

This dress looks great on me but it’s unable to contain my tittys - obviously I’m gonna wear it out🥰

03/21/2022

Jammy Fammy out on the TOWN 😍🏁

hi, happy Monday! Here’s a sappy post about my friends💕

i’ve been going through a lot recently and they’ve been incredibly supportive. I’m so thankful to know such beautiful people, Ugh! I want to write so much more but I’m editing a vlog for yall and if I want any hope of finishing it I’ve got to get off social media and FINISH!😂🎥

Also this post is a GREAT reminder to TEXT YOUR BEST FRIEND!!!😜🥰

03/21/2022

I’m sick of
tearing myself apart over my process🌈🌦

It feels like most of my creative energy goes to me fighting with myself I hate it.

This constant sense of inadequacy follows me in everything I do. even when I do accomplish goals my brain doesn’t let me take credit for them.

It’s like I have my own personal finance bro living rent free In my head just doing his thing:

Dropping weights, going on about NFTS….and casually invalidating every little thing I do - ya know, the works.

An example:

Me: yay I closed a deal!

My brain bro: ok but like on an iPhone in a car, not a laptop in an office so you really didn’t do s**t.

Or

Me: I’m getting paid for my services because they have value!🥰

Brain bro: actually they’re just gifting you money because they feel sorry for you. If you were really a good person, you wouldn’t be greedy and asking for money

And don’t even get me started with pleasing the brain bro -

that’s a mythical concept.
Every time you try your brain just moves the goalpost even further.

It sucks! And Up until recently, I never questioned seeing my life in this way.

Then I discovered feminist thought work😈🎉

I still have a lot to learn but it’s been opening my eyes to just how deeply my internal messaging to has been entrenched in patriarchal beliefs.

My mind is constantly moving the goalposts of happiness and security and I never understood why until I recontextualized my problems in this framework.

My conclusion? I’m still coming to it.

I’m also beginning to let go of judging myself, but that’s conscious process that’s going to take a lot of time to unlearn.

Spending time with loved ones is helping(: These photos were from an amazing day in LA with
And her aunt Drea💕

I’m holding myself gently as I learn more about myself in this process, and I hope you can too
💕cuz ur precious 💕

I’m excited to share more updates! if you want to try out feminist thought work for yourself, check out ‘s podcast “unf*ck your brain” is a STELLAR place to start💯

I’m curious to see who read all the way to the bottom so if you did, hi😜 would u please drop your favorite dinosaur in the comments💕

03/20/2022

las palmas🏝💕

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