06/26/2023
It’s taken me many years to build the courage to share this, but this a page of poetry I write from time to time. Some of the darker emotions I deal with in life. If you like it, then great, I write these poems in the heat of the moment most of the time, within minutes. We all struggle with emotions, sadness, depression and the darkness that veils us in this world. Words, music and poetry help us all overcome these demons. Without further ado, I present one of my earlier pieces. I was going through something wretched, and I needed to write these emotions down.
Disguise
When will all this torment fu***ng end?
Just walking through life, I’ll break and bend
Looking for a way, too just make amends
I act happy, so don’t you worry, I still pretend
Left wondering when the dark comes again!?
I feel the angel and demon locked in my chest
Constantly through fire and put to this test
Slowly welcoming my demise just like the rest
I’m just a sad, lonely, lost fu***ng mess!
I will always remember all your filthy lies
Wear your mask, you’re fake fragile disguise
Ugly underneath, that’s no fu***ng surprise
I’ve uncovered a new feeling, it’s despise
When will all this torment fu***ng end?
Just walking through life, I’ll break and bend
Looking for a way for myself to make amends
I act happy, so you don’t worry, I still pretend
Left wondering when the dark comes again!?
These feelings render me weak, so oppressed!
Where is my happiness, I search, so obsessed!
I fake this happiness, wear my mask I’m dressed!
If you have some answers for me then be my guest!
I will always remember all your filthy lies
Wear your mask, you’re fake fragile disguise
Ugly underneath, that’s no fu***ng surprise
I’ve uncovered a new feeling, it’s despise
The ghost of my past torment me
Infect me with this sad disease
Looking for a way to be set free
I hope someday they all cease
Douglas M. Dube
12/08/20
