07/09/2022
I’ve spent the last six years pouring every ounce of me into this work. Every single creative drop has gone into the Colleen Elizabeth cup. All my patience, practice, weekends, late nights, and thoughts before I fall asleep belong to this business. And I never thought I’d want it any other way.
I woke up a few months ago and started to really come to terms with what little I felt I had left. I haven’t picked up a paint brush 11 months (I just counted that on my fingers- I can’t believe it’s almost been a YEAR since I seriously painted 🙁)
The administrative side of running a business needs more, I need to bring on employees to run aspects of this business so I can paint, and be creative. But that’s not what I actually want for myself I don’t want to be a boss, I don’t want to. Which was the entire point of working for myself- to make myself happy at the end of the day. And I’m just not happy.
So I quit.
So what does this mean? I’m still going to paint, and be here on Instagram. I’ll still sell prints and follow all my creative whims. I’m keeping the studio, and the plants. Maybe that means another doll house. Or a new collection. It also means I start a regular 9-5 job on Monday, and that I won’t be making paint kits anymore and I won’t consider myself self employed or a business owner anymore. It means I’ll be reclaiming the speed at which I am creative, and I’ll be eliminating the responsibility to be active here unless I WANT to. I won’t feel the pressure to make things just to make sure the lights stay on.
This is super bittersweet for me, feeling like a “quitter” isn’t very comfy. But it’s what I need. And it’s what’s right for me. Please don’t stop messaging me, and interacting when I’m here. You are the bright spots on this app and you make my time in here worth it. Love you 🥹