10/13/2022
Dear followers,
I'm reaching out (see fig.1 above) to say thank you. Truly, thank you for caring enough to want to keep up - I know there's an overwhelming amount of stuff out there so the fact that you want to follow me and my art journey really means a lot.
Sometimes I don't feel like I write to you as often as I should. For a while there I got caught up all the "shoulds", algorithms, and statistics that come with trying to grow an art thing on social media that I intend to help sustain my life and eventually my family financially.
You have to post a certain number of times per day, between this 2 hour time window and you can only post videos or nobody will see it. And while many of these statistics ring true, it's a completely unsustainable way of relating for me personally.
I'm not always inspired to share, don't always want to take videos, and sometimes I really hate being on social media... I get sucked in and it often feels like a waste of time. But please don't take it personally. I really love all of the humans behind the screens that you read this from.
I've been living my life largely outside of social media. I've been falling deeply in love. Ive been meeting challenges that push the edge of my nervous system with deep belly breaths. Dancing in the rain. Crying at nearly every song that comes on. Cooking waaaay too many homemade frenchfries from local potatoes and probably eating way too much vegan cheese as well 🤷♀️
I've been making art, albeit not as much as I would have hoped. I'm still doing daily art (I did miss a few days last week because I'm not perfect). I've realized that a lot of what I make I feel pretty neutral about. And then every 3rd or 4th painting I'll fall absolutely in love with. That seems to be the pattern currently. Sometimes I'm surprised by what other people like in terms of my art. I'm definitely growing in my skill. I feel pretty confident that I can bring to life any image I desire if I set my mind to it and get the right supplies, this is a beautiful place to be. But I'm not an endless well of incredible ideas. Many of my ideas are pretty mediocre but they help me to learn and grow still.
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