The Mystics Tree & Nook

10/23/2024

You soothed me with your every word.
You made me feel for a time I was finally heard.
People where drawn to you like a mouth to a flame. Oh a popular monster.
You played some really ruthless games.
You laughed as you drove me almost insane.
Telling me it wasn't true.
The whole time knowing what you really would do. Oh a popular monster.
You shattered my home, my heart and my life.
You all but took and twisted that knife.
But to everyone you claimed innocent.
Smiled while lying in such arrogance.
No one saw who you really where.
The coldness, the user, the total destroyer..
Oh such a popular monster.
You came to be a jekyll and hide.
To every one sweet but behind doors that's a lie. Willing to destroy and take all that you can but outward you pointed fingers and said I'm such a good man.
Such a popular monster.
You shattered my dreams, my heart and my hopes. Whispering to others you knew not why I was at the end of my rope. The triangulation, projection, lies and deception while discarding me off playing the victim. Oh such a popular monster. I begged and I pleaded just leave me my life. Some people I trusted, some people to lean on but no you wouldn't leave one not even one. You're still the popular monster.
You took up my hobbies, my family, my friends. Oh but how good you could pretend. It took me some time but I'm getting back on my feet. You left me with nothing but at least I can see... you are nothing but a popular monster.

06/26/2024

"Piglet?" said Pooh.
"Yes?" said Piglet.

"I'm scared," said Pooh.
For a moment, there was silence.

"Would you like to talk about it?" asked Piglet, when Pooh didn't appear to be saying anything further.

"I'm just so scared," blurted out Pooh.

"So anxious. Because I don't feel like things are getting any better. If anything, I feel like they might be getting worse. People are angry, because they're so scared, and they're turning on one another, and there seems to be no clear plan out of here, and I worry about my friends and the people I love, and I wish SO much that I could give them all a hug, and oh, Piglet! I am so scared, and I cannot tell you how much I wish it wasn't so."

Piglet was thoughtful, as he looked out at the blue of the skies, peeping between the branches of the trees in the Hundred Acre Wood, and listened to his friend.

"I'm here," he said, simply. "I hear you, Pooh. And I'm here."

For a moment, Pooh was perplexed.

"But... aren't you going to tell me not to be so silly? That I should stop getting myself into a state and pull myself together? That it's hard for everyone right now?"

"No," said Piglet, quite decisively. "No, I am very much not going to do any of those things."

“But - " said Pooh.

"I can't change the world right now," continued Piglet. "And I am not going to patronise you with platitudes about how everything will be okay, because I don't know that.

"What I can do, though, Pooh, is that I can make sure that you know that I am here. And that I will always be here, to listen; and to support you; and for you to know that you are heard.

"I can't make those Anxious Feelings go away, not really.

"But I can promise you that, all the time I have breath left in my body...you won't ever need to feel those Anxious Feelings alone."

And it was a strange thing, because even as Piglet said that, Pooh could feel some of those Anxious Feelings start to loosen their grip on him and could feel one or two of them start to slither away into the forest, cowed by his friend, who sat there stolidly next to him.

Pooh thought he had never been more grateful to have Piglet in his life.

05/23/2024

Are you familiar with the “Let Them” theory?
I’ll tell you the more I grow the more I am okay with accepting the “Let Them” in my own life and relationships. Even family can mistreat and disrespect you.
This is something that took me a very long time to learn. I used to tolerate a lot because I didn't want to lose people. I learned the hard way if they were really my people they would never treat me like that. Don't make the mistake of being so understanding and forgiving that you overlook the fact that you're being repeatedly disrespected.
Let them be upset.
Let them judge you.
Let them misunderstand you.
Let them gossip about you,
Let them ignore you.
Let them be "right."
Let them doubt you.
Let them not like you.
Let them not speak to you.
Let them run your name in the ground.
Let them make you out to be the villain.
Whatever it is that people want to say about you, let them!
Kindly step aside and LET THEM.
The hard truth is they know how much they are hurting you. They just simply don't care. They did it knowing it could cause them to lose you. They did it anyway. People that love you care about how they make you feel.
The end.
Let them go.
There will be people that would rather lose you than be honest about what they've done to you. Let them go.
The lack of respect was the closure. The lack of apology was the closure. The lack of care was the closure. The lack of acountability was the closure. The lack of honestly was the closure. Let them go.
Make the decision to no longer sit at tables where you might be the topic when you get up. Let them go.
You can still be kind. You can even still love them deeply. But do it from the distance they created in their words and actions. Access to you is a privilege they have proven they can’t be trusted with. Let them go.
You don’t need to tell your side of the story. God already knows. Let God fight the battle for you. Let them go.
It’s taken me a long time to get here. Sleepless nights, countless tears, managing a range of emotions filled with anger, disappointment, confusion and deep hurt. Lots of self reflection, self preservation, deep prayer and seeking wisdom from those much wiser than me.
If you are struggling with this please know you are not alone. We will never understand why hurt people hurt people. But we can do the hard work to grow ourselves. Because healed people do in fact heal people.
Don’t you dare let them steal your joy.
Don’t you dare let them steal your light.
Don’t you dare let them steal your peace.
You are in control of that.
Hold tight to what you can control and release your grip on what you can’t control.
Let them go. My next tattoo....❤️

11/23/2023

10/20/2023

Lying is not taking accountability it's manipulation and gaslighting. Deflecting is gaslighting. Playing stupid, doe eyes... is gaslighting. Refusing to listen to someones feelings about what they feel about something youve perpetuated... gaslighting. Silent treatment after youve done something to someone... gaslighting.
If you make a choice make a choice you can stand behind and say yeah I did that... anything less is manipulation and gaslighting and it's emotional abuse. Be accountable.

10/07/2023

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10/03/2023

Had 2 skin biopsies today and another spot of precancer burned off my face. Wear your sunscreen people please.

Also can you please send prayers for my surgery on the 18th to remove a spot that's causing a blockage in my throat. But hey my edit button will be restored for a few weeks... not to worry my facial expressions still speak volumes. Lmao.

09/26/2023

Absolutely!

09/11/2023

Stop holding on to the past and set yourself up for an awesome future.

04/03/2023

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