09/03/2018
self-re·flec·tion
noun
meditation or serious thought about one's character, actions, and motives.
I've been in a self reflective funk the last few days. "What's a self reflective funk" you ask? I guess the only way I can answer that is, I have been trying to figure out what the hell I'm passionate about. What will motivate me so much that I break through barriers and achieve success. So, with that thought comes a plethora of other thoughts. By and large, all I am doing is THINKING of writing my own screen play as opposed to being the main character in my life story.
Every night before I go to sleep I think, "Okay, tomorrow morning you are going to get your ass up, work out, and THEN start your day!" And when I wake up in the morning, I drag my ass to the coffee pot, put the coffee on, get the dogs out, take care of puppies, and sit on my ass thinking about all the things that I will do "someday." I go on FB. I answer texts and messages. And I start cleaning. "Maybe I'll work out later on after the babies go home." (I babysit my grandkids)
Yeah, that NEVER happens. Once the babies get picked up I'm already so tired that I want to go to sleep. But first I rush to take care of doggies and puppies. Clean up any messes. Then finally sit down and rest.
This weekend I've had ample opportunity to get my house clean, organized, work on a project, workout, AND do some writing. But that is definitely NOT what I've done. I've sat on my ass THINKING. That's it. I've watched a bunch of "self help" video's and the advice I've gotten has been spectacular. However... Here I am, still sitting on my ass.
So... There you have it... Self reflective funk.
