06/18/2026
For Signal Magazine and for my agency folk, sometimes, I produce work that matters. This was one of those moments. I recently met a boy, another two months of getting to know someone - the intimacy, the connection, all the attempts to find his signal and harmonize. I thought I was onto something, and just like that - he went ghost. I long for connection. The kind that looks like I can rest in someone’s gaze. Working with Katrine Wallisch on one of our castings and I recalled helping direct this photo. Was I perhaps channeling a need deep inside myself for this type of longing. Something that felt like cherishing? Perhaps. Thank you to our boys for just allowing the emotion to sit and stew and brew inside of safe non-toxic masculinity. I’m very much enjoying my new magazine and exhibition series. Producing for them, writing for them - in some ways helps me exorcise my own demons of loneliness. Finding love in a world that doesn’t always seem to want to love us back has consequences. Avoidants and narcissists and all the colors of the spectrum out here in these streets. As a producer/director at least I can help my artists conjure the emotions that I too want to feel in my soul for someone one day. productionlife🎥
