Finding My Hemingway

Finding My Hemingway "Finding My Hemingway" is about my journey to find my voice as a writer and a poet through literature, photography, travel, and self-discovery.

"The water she touched was never drained. Not because he wanted to keep her—but because he wanted to keep the moment. A ...
06/28/2026

"The water she touched was never drained. Not because he wanted to keep her—but because he wanted to keep the moment. A moment when two legends saw each other clearly, and neither had to pretend."
- Ernest Hemingway

In 1957, Ernest Hemingway was fifty-eight years old, living at Finca Vigía—his "Lookout Farm" in Cuba—where he'd written For Whom the Bell Tolls and The Old Man and the Sea. He'd survived wars, plane crashes, four marriages, and countless bottles of rum. He was "Papa" to everyone in Cuba—fishermen, bartenders, his eleven cats, anyone who crossed his path. Ava Gardner was thirty-five, at the peak of her beauty and the wreckage of her third marriage—to Frank Sinatra, which had imploded spectacularly that year amid tabloid headlines, drinking, and mutual destruction. When Ava arrived in Cuba to film The Sun Also Rises—based on Hemingway's novel—she was running from photographers, from Sinatra, from herself. But when she showed up at Finca Vigía barefoot, swearing like a sailor, laughing too loud, refusing to pretend, Hemingway—who prized authenticity above everything—saw someone real. And Ava saw past the legend to the man underneath: brilliant, difficult, haunted, but still capable of startling tenderness.

Their friendship became something rawer than romance. They drank together, talked about Spain—the bullfights, the flamenco bars, the brutal honesty of a culture that didn't soften its edges. Hemingway told a friend: "Ava was the only woman who could out drink me. She could party all night and go straight to the studio and look beautiful—and then do it all again the next night. No one could keep up with her." But he also understood her sharp tongue and the insecurity hidden beneath her bravado. He recognized the loneliness of being constantly watched, the way fame could make you feel like a fraud. Ava, for her part, loved Hemingway without needing anything from him. She didn't want to sleep with him or use his name for publicity. She just liked him—his humor, his stories, the way he treated her like a person instead of a movie star.

One afternoon, after hours of drinking and talking, Ava stripped off her clothes and dove naked into Hemingway's pool. The water was warm, the afternoon light golden. Hemingway watched from the terrace—struck into rare silence by the sight of her. She swam. He watched. No one spoke. Afterward, Hemingway gave strict orders to his staff: the water in the pool was never to be drained. Not changed. Not cleaned. Never drained. He wanted to preserve the memory of that moment—not possessively, but reverently. Ava Gardner had swum in that pool, and Hemingway wanted the water she'd touched to stay there forever. It wasn't sexual. It was recognition of beauty that lived without apology, of a woman who refused to be anything other than herself. The story became legend. Tour guides at Finca Vigía still mention it—the pool where Ava swam, the water Hemingway refused to change.

Their friendship continued through the late 1950s. Ava visited multiple times. She loved the estate—the fifteen acres of wilderness, the swimming pool, the vegetable garden, the cats, the dogs, the chickens. She named A Farewell to Arms her favorite book. Hemingway told people her performance in The Sun Also Rises was the only thing worth watching. But by 1960, Hemingway's life was unraveling—depression, paranoia, declining health. On July 25, 1960, he left Finca Vigía for the last time. On July 2, 1961, in Ketchum, Idaho, he died by su***de. Ava was devastated. She'd lost one of the few people who'd seen her clearly—not as a movie star, not as Frank Sinatra's ex-wife, but as Ava, the girl from North Carolina who refused to apologize for anything. Years later, she reflected: "He understood me. He didn't try to change me. He just let me be."

Their friendship was a testament to the rarest kind of connection—one that asks for nothing but gives everything. Two people who recognized the same untamed spirit in each other, who refused to perform, who saw the loneliness beneath the fame and chose to sit with it. Hemingway preserved the water from Ava's swim because he understood that some moments aren't meant to be captured in photographs or turned into stories. They're meant to be held, quietly, like a secret between friends. The pool at Finca Vigía is empty now. Tourists peer at it from the garden paths, guides tell the story. But the friendship—the recognition that passed between them—that remains. As Ava once said: "He saw me. Not the movie star. Not the ex-wife. Just me. And that was enough."

“The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity...
06/27/2026

“The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable; they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed.”
- Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms

Critically acclaimed for its lyrical prose and meticulous attention to detail, "Death in the Afternoon" remains a signif...
06/27/2026

Critically acclaimed for its lyrical prose and meticulous attention to detail, "Death in the Afternoon" remains a significant work not only for its portrayal of bullfighting but also for its exploration of bravery, fear, and mortality. It reflects Hemingway's own fascination with courage and the human condition, making it a compelling read for those interested in his literary style and the cultural backdrop of early 20th-century Spain.

“Forget your personal tragedy. We are all bi***ed from the start and you especially have to be hurt like hell before you...
06/26/2026

“Forget your personal tragedy. We are all bi***ed from the start and you especially have to be hurt like hell before you can write seriously.”

― Ernest Hemingway

What is your favorite Ernest Hemingway book turned into a movie?
06/23/2026

What is your favorite Ernest Hemingway book turned into a movie?

Ernest Hemingway and The Black Dog
06/23/2026

Ernest Hemingway and The Black Dog

How many have you read?
06/23/2026

How many have you read?

Most people spend their lives reacting to the world rather than engaging with it. We have become experts at filling our ...
06/23/2026

Most people spend their lives reacting to the world rather than engaging with it. We have become experts at filling our schedules while remaining completely empty of true experience.

“I can't stand it to think my life is going so fast and I'm not really living it.”

- Ernest Hemingway

Ernest Hemingway spoke these words as a man who sought the peak of human experience through bullfighting, big-game hunting, and war reporting. He was a Nobel Prize winner who survived two separate plane crashes in Africa within forty-eight hours. Yet, even with a life defined by intense action, he recognized the danger of moving through time without actually inhabiting it.

The modern world rewards speed and productivity, but it rarely rewards presence. If you are constantly looking toward the next milestone, you are treating your current life as a mere obstacle to be overcome.

Stop measuring your success by how much you have done and start measuring it by how much of it you actually felt.

Patience and grace…
06/22/2026

Patience and grace…

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