Heart Of The Bereaved

03/20/2026

New demo concept album set during the late winter and spring equinox is out now.

https://heartofthebereaved.bandcamp.com/album/how-could-i-love-you-if-i-could-not-even-love-myself?mvp=p

02/15/2026

A song I wrote with some people in high school, the earliest one to be released online, this is a reinvention of it with the same skeletal outline as the original 2012 version. Happy Valentine's day.

https://heartofthebereaved.bandcamp.com/album/heart-of-the-bereaved-a-funereal-exordium-demo-single

02/15/2026

A song I wrote in high school, the earliest one to be released online, this is a reinvention of it with the same skeletal outline as the original 2012 version. Happy Valentine's day.

1 track album

05/01/2025

Here it is, the first cycle of what I intend to be 3, a collection of songs I recorded from all the way back in 2016 to 2023, a year of unbridled psychosis and deterioration.

6 track album

04/16/2025

New promo single for the upcoming album.

1 track album

04/14/2025

New album will be releasing this May, a collection of songs spanning 2016-2023.

06/02/2024

One week and one day ago was the one year anniversary of my dog's soul leaving his body and crossing the silver river. I will always have a piece missing from my heart where he once lived, although he will always remain a part of me simultaneously. Life is full of contradictions and in itself is a kind of "polar unity", as Alex Grey would put it. Perhaps I'm just pontificating to quell the grief. Last year in July I made this painting (shown in the first 2 slides) of my little Danny to pay homage to him, which is titled: 𝘈𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘴 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘪𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘙𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘧𝘦𝘵 𝘛𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘋𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘙𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘜𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵. Death is symbolized by Uktena, the untamed chaos dragon of Aniyunwiya mythology. My dog's name Daniel has Hebrew origin meaning, "judge", so he is called the Shofet in this piece. There is also another new painting (shown in the last slide with the whole project so far) titled: 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘈𝘭𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘖𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘖𝘧 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘐𝘯 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘏𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘖𝘧 𝘋𝘢𝘮𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 & 𝘈𝘣𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. The latter was in part inspired by recurring dreams and psychedelic visions depicting my soul as a wildcat and in part inspired by a local stray cat who, as of 2022, has been a new friend of mine who frequently comes to my apartment for a few hours at a time to eat food and sleep, before going back outside at night to chase insects, smaller animals, and female cats to mate and make more kittens with. The entire, ongoing and indefinite project itself currently has the working title: 𝘋𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵. This may end up being the official title as well, representative of how the journey through life and the process of individuation can be a kind of untying of a knot outside and inside the context of a macrocosmic / microcosmic, theatrical drama. Perhaps I'm pontificating again. Oh, well. In closing, I wish everyone a wonderful pride month. I would like to do something to celebrate it as someone who is a part indigenous, neuroatypical, enby hominid. Maybe I'll think of something soon.

07/04/2022

Yesternight, beneath the crescent moon and surrounded by a chorus of teeming midsummer life and small explosions in the sky, I finished the prototype of the J card for the new single, Tears Of The Ocean Bearer, which will debut online this evening at 7:04pm. Thank you to who helped greatly in the shaping of this song in mixing and mastering. I'd highly recommend exploring their music if you enjoy noise, drone, power electronics, dark ambient, cybergrind, and the like. Merry Moon day!

06/23/2022

I've been on a mental health break and will be continuing my much needed hiatus from the severely draining and debilitating environment of social media after this, but here is the artwork for a new single, Tears Of The Ocean Bearer, releasing this July. I did all the tracking and pre-mixing this past Spring. Final mixing and mastering done by this month that we are currently experiencing. Merry pride month and solidarity to everyone it pertains to: the indigenous, black, LGBTQIA, and autistic communities. This song is also fitting for this topic, as it is about accepting myself for who I am completely, while in continual confrontation with the social stigma of being neurodivergent, highly sensitive and empathic, et cetera. It was initially inspired by various, chemically induced mystical experiences and a dream I had of a piece of art called Child Stability, which was represented as a translucent box containing some sort of coagulated liquid; I immediately understood that this symbolized repression which began in childhood. It was also inspired by much of my relatives, including those who were Keetoowah and had, as family history calls it, "the sight", a curse I believe I also probably have. All of these things are interconnected like a complex, genetic web in how they formed the basis for this song and quite a bit of more new material I've been working on.

Anyways, that's enough long-winded tangents which solidify your suspicions that I am nothing more than a delusional lunatic; I hope that you all have a splendiferous night rife with good tidings and visions of the apocalypse. Goodbye.

02/21/2022

I'm finally finished with the artwork for a new album cover. This will be a compilation of demos I've been working on for the past couple of years.

02/09/2022

The new demo EP, Suiphobia: The Irrational Fear Of Self is now available for the public to disregard. Thank you to ,
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and friends for an enjoyable ritual in Centennial park, and for their support.

01/13/2022

Here is a clip of my last live performance. I will be returning to this particular stage at on February 7th, the day before the anniversary of my reluctant exiting from the safe, uterine house I biologically manifested within, with the following, fellow anthropohologenomic organisms:
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- up and coming, enigmatic, drone / noise duo with trumpets, guitar, drums, and other most enjoyable musical instruments used in ritualistic summoning of the eternal Void
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- relatively new yet solid crust punk based death metal group of necrophiliacs who will rock your sloth off a very nearby tree, because their music is very rhythmic, crunchy, and heavy
https://medusashairdresser.bandcamp.com/
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- seasoned, experimental, impromptu, electro-glitch punk duo consisting of one human being and their android companion named Regdar who allegedly is also the band's manager
https://regdarandthefighters.bandcamp.com/

This event will only be $7 for entry. However, requirements for entry also include:
•21+
•proof of either both COVID shots, or a very recent negative from COVID test
(See Springwater Supper Club and Lounge's official website for further clarification: https://www.thespringwater.com/ )