02/12/2019
Rose meant so much more to me than ''just a game'' it was my go to in bad times, and there have been many over the years since I've been away from my 'real' home where I grew up, I'd long since stopped associating with so called fake ass ''friends'' that I've met here in Atlanta, Georgia, (where my mom lives). Didn't want any new friends here anyway cause I didn't want any reason to stay when the chance to go 'home' came around. I've made so many great friends in Rose, (some I feel will remain in my life after Rose) and I could take them with me anywhere I ended up. Been away from home the 13 years (almost 14) I spent in Rose, I have a lot of great friends that I grew up with since kindergarten , as well as all my family (except mom) in Montgomery, Alabama, only 2 and 1/2 hours from here (I will be close enough to visit mom every few weeks or so as I am all she has)... my guess is, somewhere along the lines, Fate stepped in and knew what I needed to happen at this exact time in my life and the sacrifice was Rose being taken away from me. The timing couldn't have been better as everything that needs to happen before I move is all gonna fall right into place. I don't think things would happen as perfectly as they are if I were still playing Rose because it was my #1 over anything else in my life, I tended to put things off and put them off again and again cause I was busy, I was playing Rose, I would take care of it right after we killed this boss or after I made that next level. I think Rose was taken (and this reason is the most important one!) so that I would re-join the land of the living as I am, in fact, able to move back home for good. It took me a long time to finally be able to make this move and get back to where I belong. Just got approval for my job to transfer me, gave my roommates a 30 day notice (although I'll be gone before then), gave work a 2 and 1/2 week notice and will be home in 3 weeks at most! Funny how that happened huh? If that's not FATE working in my life then tell me what it is. And would you believe all of this just came to me as I was writing this? It did. It has been the most emotional day I think I've ever had in my life! But, I know it's strange, somehow I feel an inner peace and calm coming over me like things are as they should be right atm in my life. (I felt it only after my complete meltdown when I saw 'server disconnection' for the last time). Everything happens for a reason I hear but I've never seen that reason so quick or so clearly as I do now. This doesn't mean I'll never play another Rose again, I really don't know right now and there's nothing saying I have to make that decision immediately. I will, of course, remain in this group, keep my DF clan page alive and talk to all my amazing, life changing friends I have in all of you! You got me through a very long and difficult time in my life! I would have given up had it not been for Rose and all of you! You will always mean everything to me cause without you I wouldn't be where I am in life right now! I look forward to keeping in touch with each and everyone of you. Rose may be gone but our friendships will last a lifetime!