10/14/2025
I'm putting up the art,
and putting away the brushes.
If you've followed this page for a bit, you may have noticed it's been relatively radio-silent over here.
And it's because I've not had the capacity to create, leaving me nothing really to share.
I've been toting around some formerly made pieces to have available on the side as a fundraiser for the farmers market I manage but I've not really been "in it".
I've often joked that my art is a side to the side to the side hobby but, the truth? It actually is just that.
While I love to create, I've not found myself able to in a long while because other items take priority.
While I do believe we - women - can do anything and everything we want, I do think it comes with a caveat of "but not necessarily all at once."
For me, my time has been dominated by things that will keep the lights on and support the kids. And those are immensely important things. I find no fault, no shame, and no regret in that. It's just the stage of life I'm in. It's just my reality.
Some may say that my setting aside the brushes is a result of a scarcity mindset. That I am allowing a fear about my art and the possibility of not selling it to influence my ability to take a risk and "go for it."
Yeah, maybe.
But when you're always at least one bill behind, there's not much flexibility when a risk doesn't pan out.
I've had plenty of creative ideas, but when I think about doing them, my mind goes to, "Could I sell this? Because, if not, I should probably be doing something that will earn money."
I know, I know - that feels sad.
And, I guess it is.
And, it's why I'm not toting around the art anymore.
Until I can find space - mentally, emotionally...literally in my house - to create freely, without expectation of the end result, the art just feels like a burden.
Hopefully I'll find that space and freedom sooner rather than later but, for now, the art has been shelved and the supplies are being stored away.
When I'm able to create, I'll look forward to sharing it here.
Until then, I hope you all are finding the freedom to enjoy what moves you.