MCM Artistry

09/20/2026

Over a month has gone by and I don't have a job just yet. Still working at it, though! I've cried less than I thought. Mostly from studying. It's a weird loop of I need a job to make money but the jobs I'm qualified for also want a me to have my CISA (Certified Information Systems Auditor certification). I had started studying for it earlier in May and this is the first time since middle school where I've been able to study without having to balance a job or other classes and assignments. For me to study, I need to put time in which means less time for job searching and working on setting up the business. The test is also very expensive. Over $500USD to take the exam and there are no good third party study tools like there are for CPA or other certs. Their book was $180 (physical, paper back copy) and $200+ for the question test bank. So I need the cert to get a job and I need a job to take the exam to get the cert. The test is about 95% "choose the best answer" and I struggle with those so I didn't pass when I took it on Friday (2 days ago). I was hoping I could be done studying but guess not. I cried out of being tired for about an hour, took a shower, and rewrote my cover letter. That's seems to be how I deal with problems. A good, timed cry and then back to work.

When we hear about how hard it is to get a job, I dont think getting a job is the hardest part. Getting passed the computers to the first interview is. I had one interview last week the entire time and it was because a human was reviewing the applications. I was sent a denial email within hours for about 4-5 companies outside of business hours (2am and weekends). On paper, I have all the credentials minus the CISA but I am certified in the 2nd most performed IS audits (ISO) yet most applications don't list it so I believe that is likely what kicks me out. I've sent follow up emails asking about what I could do better and haven't received a response for any of them. But, it's easy to complain and that wont't get me a job. So quantity is the tactic, I guess.

08/30/2026

First goes at an idea always look a bit wonky but j think this can be pretty easily fixed.

I really like making patterns but I don’t like the repetitive process of remaking to clean up instructions. Hence why I haven’t published one yet. But maybe this year!

08/29/2026

I was diagnosed with ADHD and depression last year. You wouldn’t think so,though. I switched from fast public accounting to slower internal auditing and I increasingly had trouble focusing. I made tiny mistakes more frequently despite checking my work 3 times kind of tiny. I had a project where I pulled a couple reports but I chose the wrong date. I broke down during the team meeting because I didn’t know why I kept messing up. My manager tried to reassure me because she didn’t notice during her review either. My reaction and what I was reacting to didn’t match so I made an appointment and got my diagnosis. I didn’t want medication at first, but CBT alone didn’t solve everything. I didn’t want to take hard meds so I was put on an NDRI to help both things. Rough 3 month adjustment but they’ve really helped. So the shaky hands is a small cost, imo.
(Ignore my nails. I was impatient.)

08/27/2026

When I found out I was fired, I was at a doctor’s appointment trying not to cry the whole time. I got home and FaceTimed my friend/coworker who was fired with me and then I cried to my boyfriend. After this, I stopped crying and looked up the jobs in my industry for my level. They’re out there, but I’m unsure. I lost a lot of confidence while I was at my last job. Not because of any person (my managers and team were amazing). The work that was supposed to be mine wasn’t there and out of our control. Despite knowing this, my imposter syndrome grew. Slowing way down from public accounting, I also found I’m ADHD and just now noticing the symptoms so, mentally, I don’t feel as sharp anymore. All of that combined, I don’t feel confident I can do the roles these applications ask. But, I’ll apply anyways and find out. I’ll finish studying to get my CISA certification and that will teach me more and tell others I at least know something. What worries me the most is working with a different team. My team was understanding, accommodating, and truly amazing and intelligent people and you never know if it’ll be like that in a new job. pookiemoot

08/26/2026

I said I’d be back a while ago but now I’m back again but with a face reveal. This is the first time I’ve been fired and luckily it was not performance based or I’d be a wreck. It’s pretty scary to not know what’s going to happen and if you’ll have income again. But everyone is telling me that it may be a good thing. Maybe it is. When I have an idea, I’m so excited that I go on a deep dive into research. For some of these ideas, I become intimidated and don’t want to start. Selling my art and crafts has been an idea for a long time but one that I’ve put off over and over again. I pushed myself this time to just start because what else do I have going on? I paid for a newspaper legal notice so I can get a DBA to sell under MCM Artistry. It is supposed to be posted this Friday (Aug 28) and then I’ll be able to register for everything else. Maybe begin selling as soon as next week! Scary. Very scary. I’ll try to keep you all posted!

02/15/2026

When your color is being taken off the line and you’re free-handing something with no clue how much you’ll need 🫠

I’m crocheting again! I’ve been enjoying gaming with friends and chilling! Ready to start back up with all my projects. Will this be the year I finish them?? 🤔

(IP credit: I made it… yes all of those are mine)

12/31/2025

09/07/2025

New hobby. Help! No, my previous projects are not finished. 😅

I love that I can use small, plastic trash to fill these though!

02/16/2025

Which looks best for a plush?