12/23/2019
Tomorrow afternoon I'll be leaving the house I've lived in for the past 3+ months. For better or worse, the time I've been here, I've had the opportunity to heal, both physically and emotionally, grow from some pivotal mistakes, as well as make a few new ones. None of which would've been possible without the help of the good people in my wake: my mom, Chris; ladyfriend, Aria; buddies, Mike and Tony; the family that took me in, Cindi, Eddie, Owen and Sam (not to mention Ollie and Pepper), and, of course, my baby girl, Daisydogg. The help I've received from all of you has meant so much, and my appreciation could not be overstated. I love you all!π
It's been a long and tiresome year, but despite all of that, I can't help but to admit that I'm proud of who I am today, and of all that I've accomplished, even when, some days, my greatest accomplishments are just getting out of bed and taking Daisy out, or, on other days, maybe getting to work early, staying late, making dinner for my mom, and still mustering the energy to sing some tunes for an eager audience. At the end of the day, it's all about perspective, and, if there's one thing I've learned through all of this, it's that perspective accounts for everything.
Everything I've survived this year far surpasses the obvious loss of my son, in that his death was but a catalyst for every subsequent hardship, but it is all a testament to how far we can fall, and, more importantly, how hard we can push back against such painful challenges.βπ
I may be wounded but I'm healing; I may be broken but I'm sound; I may be crazy but my eyes are open; and I may be devastated but I'm hopeful. I'm hopeful that the future has more for me. I'm hopeful that despite my transgressions I am loved. I am confident that I will find my new center.
Above all, I am certain that so much more awaits me in the coming year. ππ«π€
Patrick R. Kempfer Avoiding Homelessness for Christmas Looking for hope and human support. I need it. I've been needing it all year, but it's only been as of