11/12/2021
meditated for a bit this morning after I had seen this clip, and it must've struck me.
Let's talk about Spirituality and parenting. Both being imperfect journeys and both you have to be just as equally dedicated to.
The world and society is very different in many ways today, than what I remember when I was young. Maybe this is just my perception, but in the last decade, and especially last 5 years I've noticed a shift, a huge one. Some parts good, some iffy, some bad, but in whole; different in regards to discussing Spirituality and mental/emotional health.
When I was young yes I was offered therapy for my trauma, and there was some discussion on my mental health, trauma, goals, only because of my mother, and mother alone. And when I was a teen my mom was the cool mom, and she was still highly respected by all my buddies. And I honestly believe it was due to her progressiveness in this area of life. And because she walked with the humility of knowing that one day, each of us, would grow into our own. With our own beliefs, our own struggles, and our own power as well.
Anyways as a kid, I never realized and sat with the fact that my mom was still learning too. I was her first kiddo. I was the first teen. I was the first to sneak out, engage in risky behaviour, and the first to break her trust. We all come to this moment in life, normally after having our own babies and being humble enough to admit our faults, that this clicks.
My mom was still young when she had us, still trying to figure herself out, the world out, all while trying to keep these tiny humans alive. It's easier to see the truth, and the truth was, my mom is still human.
When mom guilt sets in, when fears just flood my head in the morning off the mistakes I've already made, all while striving, working toward, and manifesting being the "cycle breaker", I have to keep the following in mind:
🖤 My kids won't remember me or our household by how clean I kept it
🖤 My kids are and have been provided with all of their needs and most of their wants
🖤 Every day is a new day for me to be their "hero"
🖤 Every mistake and boo boo they make is my opportunity to meet them where their at
🖤 Both of my kiddos are the healers to my inner child, when I allow it
🖤 And when either kiddo, especially my oldest in public school, comes to me with an issue, a problem, or they're hurting, as I meet their need for comfort, reassurance, safety, etc. I am also healing the parts in me that stayed broken for so long
Being a mom is one of the best gifts this Universe gave me besides my own mother. I will forever cherish how hand in hand parenting and the test of the Spirit go.
Remember as a parent today, I will always be my kiddos first Hero, and it's my responsibility to live up to that.
