05/16/2020
Thinking of my career lately and how hard I worked to get as far as I have. And now as things have paused momentarily... I think it is a blessing In disguise since I had a child right before. I am given an opportunity to spend with my baby...nurse her and not force myself to make bottles to last a 10-16 hour day. Not have to pump at work. Lose more sleep than I’m already losing...I can be fully here for my family. Not have to dye my hair, do my makeup...wear all black. I can contemplate how I will be better than I was... and I can strategize and I have time to create in other avenues..when she’s not demanding my love, attention and breast. Do I miss it? Everyday. Am I sad I’m not working? Yes. Am I sad my peers aren’t working either? Yes. Absolutely. Do I hope this is all over soon? 💯 yes. But I am also blessed I have this time. The time in my life where I didn’t have to make a choice...yes to the job or yes to my child. Every day I am creating in my head, every day there is something I want to create. But now I’m given the time for my mental health, physical healing and lots of momma time. In the meantime...here are some random makeup moments...