11/07/2025
🚨Vulnerability alert🚨 an illustrated life update
[TLDR: I'm going thru a prolonged illness right now. I'm still taking on mural & design jobs as I wade through the healing process and I've got a great team of artists that are helping me fabricate artwork in the studio & onsite these days, so L Star Murals forges forward :):) ]
Long story long, this year has been really tough healthwise. As some of you know, I've been experiencing intense symptoms and looking for answers w/countless doctors & tests since March. I had to step away from work for a few months to find the right medical help & to rest and focus on healing. As a small business owner this is of course very financially challenging. I'm working very soft hours these days and hoping to build back to a more robust schedule as soon as I'm able 🙏
I'm dealing with highly reactive MCAS & SIBO most likely caused by some past mold toxicity (+ antibiotics + stomach bug + who knows what else.) There have been days I could barely walk, barely breathe, had hives, allergies to 99% of food, fire arms, anaphylaxis, chest pain, hormone instability, digestive pains, felt like I was getting electrocuted, blurred vision, dizziness, anxiety, brainfog, bone and muscle pain, acid reflux, tinnitus, and the list goes on. In other words, a walk in the park!
I'm in the tenuous process of stabilizing myself for the next phase of the healing journey when I'll introduce new meds. I've been focusing on somatics, vagal toning, brain retraining, emdr, etc and it has helped me conjure hope and gratitude in this time. Hope is my north star as I rebuild myself on the cellular level. L Star 2.0 baby!
During the past few months I started processing this experience visually. These b&w drawings are kinda simple but hold a lot for me cuz I started them when I was homebound and extremely sick w/zero hope. I have gradually amended them as things developed to reflect where I'm at in real time. I felt compelled to share (😬😬😬) hoping maybe they'll reach a few others who have also been struggling, but in the least I hope it explains whats been going on & why we haven't hung out in a while. 💋✌️
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