03/21/2022
~~~ Child Abuse ~~~
I fear the mornings when I awake
Another day filled with fear and pain
Seeing you walking towards me in anger
Blows landing on me, from this will you refrain
I hear the anger in your voice
No kind words to me do you speak
You make me feel useless and unwanted
My soul is now broken as I feel weak
Many days I lay on my bed and cry
Just so I can stay out of your sight
I curl in a ball, feeling my own strength
I am so tired I can no longer fight
I have never begged you to love me
Only I ask for a painless day to spend
I long for the love from another each day
A person who one day I can call friend
I hear you scream my name now
As you open the door that I hide behind
I tremble, huddled in the dark corner
Praying me you will not find
You are now towering over me
Your anger filled face , through watery eyes I see
The first blow you land upon my body
A scream of pain escapes from me
Your strong hands grab me by my hair
As you yank me to my little feet
Blow after blow you land on my body
Into submission me you now beat
This life I have lived is to harsh
No more do I want to be here with you
I can no longer with my heart reach out
Because of the harsh things to me you do
I have suffered the pains of broken bones
Cuts and bruises on my body so small
I sleep in a world of anger and nightmares
As the many beatings in tears I recall
I close my eyes now, knowing what it is I must do
No longer in this world you have built
Will I be a part of with you
I take the knife my trembling hands now hold
Holding it above my body this day
In one swift movement my life is gone
Slumping to the floor here I now lay
I hope that what I have done pleases you
As death has taken away the fears from me
No longer will I have to relive the pains
Today I took my life and set myself free
©Tall Mountain Dreamer March 21, 2022