08/16/2026
The Completion — Pic 7
My day began slowly but with a deep sense of fulfillment and excitement.
Though physically tired, I knew I wasn't going to stop and push the final session into another day.
It felt almost like seeing presents beneath a Christmas tree. You know the gift is there. You have waited for it. Now you simply cannot resist opening it.
With every stroke that went onto the canvas, I found myself stepping backward to look.
Not simply to decide where the next stroke should land, but to gradually experience the finished painting revealing itself to me.
Dinner at the Elms took approximately a month to paint. Yet between drying time, compositional decisions, and the long period in which the original drawing remained unresolved, this painting actually began much earlier.
The drawing had been speaking to me for well over a year.
Its deeper meaning took even longer.
As I completed the final strokes, I realized that what I wanted was no longer simply more painting.
I wanted more understanding.
I wanted to understand myself, the symbolism I return to, the memories that drive the work, and why certain places and moments remain inside us long after we have left them.
This painting carries memories of a place I once knew, along with sadness for experiences and relationships I still sometimes long for.
Yet there is something extraordinary within that sadness.
This painting might never have existed without suffering.
Neither would much of Still Life in Places.
There is a strange irony in discovering beauty on the other side of pain. What once seemed capable of destroying me eventually became material from which something else could grow.
Not because suffering itself is beautiful.
It isn't.
But healing can be.
Faith can be.
And discovering that life still holds meaning after believing it no longer did may be one of the greatest gifts I have ever received.
For me, that restoration came through Jesus Christ.
And so Dinner at the Elms closes this journey not with an answer to every question, but with gratitude.
I am still here.
I am still painting.
I am still searching.
But today, I understand that searching does not always mean leaving.
Sometimes it means remaining long enough to recognize what God has already placed before you.