08/20/2020
Watch my multiple identities merge as I watch this world merge into oblivion.
There was a delicate sliver of time before COVID hit where I knew what I wanted to do and had a plan in place, but now as everything is at a halt, I'm back to the uncertainty of what I should be doing. That same idea of what I wanted to be doesn't feel right anymore. I'm still feeling forever unqualified to do what I wish, as finding the means for going back to school is virtually impossible. Despite this immense privilege, I have of being able to spend my free time working on myself and my craft, feelings of being stuck are still strong. But I DO KNOW I'm not alone, and I do know there are WAY WORST things to be complaining about, but the reason why I wanted to share this was as I was spilling these complains out on a dying laptop, as I went to grab my charger on the ground I came across the flipped out Star card.
For those who aren't aware, Star card in the deck follows after the Tower card (Tower card's literal image is of people being blown out of a falling tower so think ROCK BOTTOM)
The Star is supposed to represent renewed hope after a traumatic event, appreciating the things we have learned and just staying outright faithful that s**t will work out eventually. Out of 78 cards with 78 different meanings attached to each one, the Star was the only one hoped out on the ground. If any of you are reading this needed a sign there, I hope this helps.
@ Rensselaer, New York
