05/01/2026
May 1st.
WARNING Loooonnnngg Post
’ve entered the era… my birthday month. And listen I don’t just celebrate a day.
I honor the journey. But if I’m being real this month will always be bittersweet. Because while I’m celebrating life, I’m also remembering one of the greatest loves of my life my grandma.
This is the month I lost her.
And grief has a funny way of showing up even when you’re trying to celebrate.
So there’s a part of me that’s smiling…and a part of me that’s quiet.A part of me that’s grateful…
and a part of me that still wishes I could hear her voice one more time. And because life has a sense of humor my back said, “you’ve been doing too much so let me humble you and make you be still for a minute .” It’s been 9 years since the last time this happened and it has officially went ALL THE WAY OUT. Not “a little sore”…
I mean can’t walk OUT.
Also, just to stay on brand…
I am a Ta**us ♉️ so yes, I absolutely crave attention…
and then immediately panic when I get it. Like “look at me!” followed by “wait… not like that… everybody relax.”
So here I am…
celebrating life… grieving love… and laid up like I just lost a wrestling match with the floor. But maybe that’s what this month really represents. Life is never just one thing. It’s joy and pain.
Laughter and loss. Celebration and stillness. And somehow we carry all of it.
So yes… I’ll still be accepting:
Love, Good energy, Prayers for this back, and anything that sparkles or smells expensive.
But more than anything. I’m honoring the fact that I’m still here and still standing… well… eventually.
Happy Birthday Month to me and all my other beautiful bulls. LET THE BULLS RUNS!!!!!