06/01/2026
“To Run forever if ya never let it end.”
I painted those words on a piece inspired by the music of Tyler Childers almost four years ago. At the time, I thought they were beautiful lyrics. I thought they represented freedom, adventure, chasing the next story, the next town, the next feeling.
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I never realized how much those words would come to mirror my own life.
For years, I lived like the road would never end. Always moving. Always chasing. Always finding another distraction, another party, another reason not to sit alone with myself. I ran so hard and so fast that I convinced myself I was living. Looking back now, I think I was just trying not to feel.
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Addiction has a way of doing that. So does chaos. It keeps you busy enough that you never have to stop and ask yourself the hard questions. You never have to face the things you’ve lost, the people you’ve hurt, or the parts of yourself you’ve abandoned along the way.
Eventually, though, the music gets quieter. The crowds go home. The distractions stop working. And you’re left standing in the middle of the life you’ve built, looking around at the wreckage and wondering how you got there.
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That’s where I find myself now.
Not at the end of the road—but at a crossroads.
Trying to figure out who I am when the noise is gone. Trying to separate the real me from the survival version of me. Trying to learn what I actually love, what I actually believe, and what kind of life I want when I’m no longer running from myself.
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It’s uncomfortable. Some days it’s heartbreaking. Some days I don’t recognize the person staring back at me.
But maybe that’s the point.
Maybe the road isn’t meant to go on forever.
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Maybe sometimes the bravest thing you can do is let it end.
Let the old habits end. Let the addictions end. Let the versions of yourself that were built from pain and survival finally rest.
Because you can’t discover who you are while you’re still running from yourself.
And for the first time in a very long time, I’m standing still long enough to find out who that person might be.
— Sage
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