Kayy's Poetry

10/30/2024

You’re the girl who never had many friends. you fell in love too quickly. you were always told you were so "mature for your age". I get it. the girl who drifted into her own little fantasy world for protection. you're the girl who comes into peoples lives to teach them love but never got it back. I feel you , but you dream one day of finding a love that is “REAL” but when will that day come where TRUE HAPPINESS APPEARS ! No more WALLS OF PROTECTION! Pure LOVE can bring the BEST OUT OF YOU! But the PAIN you’ve endured has changed you and your scared that if that if you’re dream comes true YOU WANT KNOW HOW TO ACCEPT AND HANDLE THE REAL LOVE YOUR HEART WAS GIVEN !

06/07/2023

07/23/2022

CONFLICTIONS OF WHAT WE WERE TOLD 💪🏽

I read,
An understands�I hear,
But can’t save them all�This world's pleasures, and pains.
Are like
This fiction,
Or �Non-fiction book,
So we�Don't know which one to claim..? ��Just words,
Of wisdom and knowledge are�Just feelings,
We can’t ignore �Quick passing, yet it stew.
In�Our brains,
Or in�Our hearts,�So much pressure, who knew? ��There’s always love,
Good or Lust�There’s always hate,
From far away or near�Each advice born from fear.�We yell Freedom,
And�Go Slavery,
But�Our distinctions not clear! ��Through wars,
Not seen �Through rules,
That doesn’t apply �Will we ever flee?�What’s death,
When we celebrate �What’s life,
When we rejoice �Will we ever find peace? ��When you’re sad,
Thoughts stir�When you’re happy,
You’re sitting on a high horse �Who formed this world curved?�A God?
The Messiah
Or�A Devil?
Who was an angel�This why we are so disturbed...? ��No control,
Over ourselves �No anarchy,
To be freely constituted without authorities � Which one steers the boat..?�We create,
Till�We destroy,
There’s nothing more to tote�For a broken note!
To a misunderstood story �It's past,
Reflects �It's future,�Each one is our history.�Through time,
Or�Through space,�We repeat ,
Like an unsolved mystery,
That’s the life of being conflicted.

06/27/2022

BROKEN BEATS

what is life? where is it going?
a merry-go-round, round in circles
continuous, meticulous, up and down.
i'm trapped in repeat
a broken heart, with a broken record to play it's beat.
your life story is written in memories
actions you take, determine your fate
there's this and that, a prison you make.
repeat, repeat, repeat, the merry-go-round, it's on repeat.
the song of the broken heart that carries this beat.

06/24/2022

Never doubt and never look back!

Over time I have came to the conclusion that somewhere down the line I started doubting myself and letting it be my overall picture of how things weren’t going to be.
But when you realize your potential again
And realize that it was only you the whole entire time wasting time doubting yourself
It’s like you been struck by lightning
Like your ripped apart
Because if you wouldn’t have woke up to your reality you wouldn’t of never expected it to be yourself.

06/22/2022

Hide and Seek 🙌🏽

It’s so easy to get lost
To get comfortable in the act
In the game of pretend
Of being something you’re not
Perhaps because it’s safer
Or because you are afraid of the monster behind the mask
Or maybe just because it’s easy

But acting is never really easy
That’s why actors get paid so much to do it
But who’s paying you?
Who’s paying you to betray the version of yourself that you see when you look in the mirror?

Who’s paying you to hide yourself away?
To bottle up your emotions and leave them locked away, praying for fine wine?

Honey you are the fine wine.
Break every bottle because breaking is the first step to putting yourself back together again.
Rip down the yellow wallpaper
That always drove you insane
Or at least that’s what they called it.

You are so much more than somebody else’ consolation prize
Or somebody else’s momento
You are a roaring flame
Capable of burning every moment
he made you feel small
And every man who ever will.

You see,
I waited so long for someone to find me
That I nearly forgot to find myself,
But I’m here now
No more hide and seek

He found me when
I didn’t even know I could be found
But when I thought my entire fears
Of being alone when I never been alone
Scared me he was there

He stood by my side when the world came
Exploding up my life slowly but surely
He fought through the battles of my inner demons
Through the humiliation I put myself through years before I met him
That he fights with daily
Understanding and loving
GOD I’m here now
Take me as I am 😇

06/22/2022

Never Ending Games 🎲🎮

I was never good at playing these games
Rolling the dice
Going on dates
Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best

I was never the master of board games
Or video games
Or games involving…. Me
But I loved playing dice games with you

Never realizing the games you were playing with me
Rolling dice with my heart
Placing bets on my tears
And making sure they all knew how easily I would break

And maybe love was one of the cards I never flipped over
Or maybe I was never really playing the right game
But never forget the queen is the strongest piece in the game of chess

I placed my bets
I kept the score
Again and again and again
But the timer is up
The pieces are all gone
And I am the only player left at the table

Perhaps I am meant to stay broken
A game that everyone played, but no one wanted to keep
Or perhaps I am the game you forget you ever knew.
And this is such a cold and bitter winter
And I am such a fool for hanging on so long
But maybe if I just play a little longer.