03/25/2024
Learning and wanting to learn to play certain songs on guitar, and being a lyrics guy, is why I've always sang certain songs. Lately it hits and sucks learning songs you like, but defeats the purpose when some you just can't believe the lyrics to anymore, yet for some reason still hit you and make you break when you play and sing them😔
In ways, I guess they hit harder knowing you wanna believe in certain things but just can't anymore😢 That's a whole different feeling. Maybe it's because deep down something is still in me, maybe it's just because I feel I'll still just be playing and wondering why, when nobody listens or would come out to support anyway. Not many have and not enough to book anywhere on a regular basis, because the first thing any venue asks is how much of a following you have..... sucks when you've tried to establish one for so long but then again, how can you establish one when you can't even speak to people about booking? muchless have so many people telling you for so long you should do it on your own, and for so long you invest so much in it and so called friends never show to support. I've had more strangers who've come up to me after shows saying they'd come see me or support me than I have so called friends, and they've asked me where I'll be playing next.... wish I could book enough shows to answer them🙌