10/23/2026
Day 85 out of 100. 🫶🏼
In so many ways this challenge has felt like a lil bit of a failure to me. Something I could only show up for on the good days, when life felt a little lighter and the pain was much quieter.
But what this platform hasn’t captured are the 85 days of keeping a promise to myself.
The days I chose to move my body, even when it hurts like hell. Everyday that I created something beautiful while holding onto something heavy. The days I reminded my heart that it was worthy of BIG love, even when the world around me felt anything but loving.
I’ve spent these 85 days learning that showing up for myself doesn’t always look like progress from the outside or blasting it on socials.
It can also just look like resting, honoring my bodies yessss and no’s, and starting over for the hundredth time. Sometimes it’s recognizing that the life I’ve been living isn’t necessarily the life I want to keep creating and showing up for.
I’ve been dreaming bigger, rewriting what life and my beautiful business could be , reconnecting with my creativity, and learning to love myself through pain levels that are more than often unfathomable.
And somewhere in the middle of all this messiness, I’ve continued creating. Every. SINGLE. DAY. New earrings, new artwork, and little pieces of magic have been finding their way onto my website. I’ve been slowly giving my creative world the love and attention it deserves, too and I will be shifting my website and style as we enter into cocooning season. ✨
I still don’t have it all figured out. Not even close.
I am continually reminded that this challenge was never about becoming a completely different person in 100 days.
Maybe it was about learning to stop abandoning the person I already am and remember what makes paypay truly magic 🥹🧙
Day by day, coming home to myself.
And if you’re in a season where simply showing up feels like everything you’ve got, I hope you know that counts, too.
