12/10/2025
We all gather, dance, sing, eat, pray around the same fire. 🔥
No matter what team they say we’re on. Us/them. I call bu****it. Take a breath. Look around. 🤫
grat•i•tude. (noun) the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.
I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful to be free from the chokehold that alcohol and drugs once held me in. I am grateful that drugs and alcohol did not kill me, though it was close many times. I am grateful for all the times alcohol and drugs kept me alive. Those realities are two sides of the same coin. Judge not, friends. We all have our own journeys. We don’t get to dictate the path that others choose.
Today I am grateful that I don’t crave the drugs and alcohol I once did. I’m still working on that and perhaps more subtle ones: sugar, gluten, screen time, adrenaline, s*x, money. . .
Recovery is not linear. Grief is not linear. Life is not linear. We recover. We relapse. We recover. We don’t lose our past recovery when we relapse. That’s absurd. We move forward, we learn, we grow, we flex, we adjust. We are always recovering. ❤️🩹
I am grateful for the healers and the helpers, and grateful that I’ve been discovering my own strengths in this long lineage of healing women from which we descend.
I am grateful for those who held their hand out and helped me through, and for those who continue to do that today. I am grateful I am alive and well enough that I can offer my hand to others.
I am grateful to folks reminding me gently and less so, to slow the f**k down. To pause, breathe, think. I am grateful I slipped on ice carrying something too heavy, took flight, jarred my neck enough to cause concussion. I’m grateful this has forced me to set down so so much that is not mine to carry. The persistent pain is a gift that reminds me to be present in my own body, in the moment.
Grateful they don’t burn witches anymore, except they do. In meetings, ad campaigns, schools, hospitals, buses, emails, prisons, sidewalks. Oh dang, they do still burn the witches.
I am recovering with a friend in a sanctuary of art and cats 🐈⬛ I am so f**king grateful.