05/31/2023
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๐๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ก๐ฌ๐ซโ๐ฑ ๐ง๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ด๐๐จ๐ข ๐ฒ๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐ก ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ข ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฃ๐ฉ๐ถ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ด๐ฑ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ฐ ๐ ๐ญ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ฐ๐ฐ.
โจVulnerable Moment Incomingโจ
Iโm coming to terms with the fact Iโve not been okay for a long time. Iโve always struggled mentally due to childhood trauma, anxiety, and health issues but nothing compared to loosing my best friend two years ago. It was the catalyst to loosing my way worse than I ever had before and I havenโt really been able to find my way back to any kind of normal existence since. Iโve tried so many things to help and some only made my mental state worse and Iโm still recovering from the fog of it all. I havenโt been in the overwhelming grief/depression phase for a while though I do miss her immensely. The problem lately has been all encompassing numbness and I could not take it anymore. Iโm finally addressing the problems in a way that I think makes since and I feel like Iโm heading into the right direction for once.
Everyoneโs love, patience, and support has meant the world to me. Iโm sorry Iโve not been present on this platform as much the past few years. I just lost my motivation for it, with algorithm changes and feeling like the only way people see content no matter how many followers you have is to pay for adds. Now pile that on top of my poor mental health and Iโm pretty sure Iโve ruined my reach.
Iโm going to try my best to post semi regularly just so all of you who follow can see what Iโm working on currently. Iโm going to try and keep myself from getting consumed by self doubt.
Thanks for reading my expression of feelings into the void. Just know if you have similar feelings that you are not alone. And that I love and appreciate you๐ค
Iโll be posting new flash hopefully tomorrow, and Iโll be opening my books on Friday at Noon for the months of August, September, and October.
If you want to support me, follow if you havenโt, like, share, and interact with my posts. If you already do those things you are the best and it doesnโt go unnoticed ๐
Thanks for sticking with me ๐ค