10/16/2023
I don't like the things they do at parties
They get drunk and nobody's ever sorry
But i get offended when i'm not invited
Even though i know if i was there
I'd just be thinking "god, i wish i was home"
I want love, but i've got commitment issues
I cry all the time, i'm running out of tissues
I'm starting to think that i only let myself fall for the player type
'cause it's too much pressure to be someone's everything all the time
I always complain that i feel like i don't feel have any real friends
When really i do, i just don't put in effort with any of them
I'm good at convincing myself that i'm alone
But maybe they'd ask to hang out
If i would just pick up my phone
Self sabotage gives me a round of applause
'cause when life is going good, i'll find reasons why it's not
I cut people out, 'cause i can't stand a crowd
If i didn't get so homesick, i'd run straight out of this town
I'm the only one who doesn't want what's best for me
hat's why a stranger looks at me and instantly feels sympathetic
Somehow i think that it's wrong for me to be happy
I sniff out all of the bad things 'cause i hate surprises
Isn't that pathetic?
I need a break from people when i'm with them too much
But when they do the same i think they must not like that much
I'm insecure and it's become a joke among my group of friends
'cause if i suspect someone might not like me the whole world ends
I lose my mind then meet a guy and think i found it
Then i get hurt and write a song or 5 about it
I barely knew him, but i cried for days when we were done
I have this habit i imagine every guy is the one
I see girls online then i look at my life and i pity myself
Why can't i have it all figured out like everyone else?
I know that there's millions of people who walk in my shoes
But my crippled ego believes no one's got it worse than i do
Self sabotage gives me a round of applause
'cause when life is going good, i'll find reasons why it's not
I cut people out, 'cause i can't stand a crowd
If i didn't get so homesick, i'd run straight out of this town
I'm the only one who doesn't want what's best for me
That's why a stranger looks at me and instantly feels sympathetic
Somehow i think that it's wrong for me to be happy
I sniff out all of the bad things 'cause i hate surprises
Isn't that pathetic?
Looking back on my life, it's like watching a comedy
Evil laugh track plays on repeat again and again
My romantic life is more like a horror film
Looking back on my life, it's like watching a comedy
Evil laugh track plays on repeat again and again
My romantic life is more like a horror film
And all the good guys are killed in seconds and
I'm not who i wanna be and i wish i could stay intact
I wish i could stay in bed
'cause the sun's too bright, it's hurting my eyes
Going outside gives me a migraine
I need to cut caffeine and hydrate
Listen all the things about me that i hate
All i did in a song was exaggerate
All i did in a song was to deprecate
'cause we live in a world where it's glamourised
Where it's cool to have a pathetic life
We're doing fine
But who cares if you're not crying?
Isn't that pathetic?
We won't admit, we're doing fine
SELF SABOTAGE OUT NOW ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS!!TW: FLASHING LIGHTS