06/06/2026
I've been showing up differently lately. And people have been showing up differently back.
The engagement has been real in a way I didn't fully anticipate. Not just likes and kind words... actual conversations. People weighing in on how to hang a series on the wall, brainstorming ideas for things we can actually make happen together, and putting up with me blathering about backend organizational stuff... because I know I can go on and on when it comes to building a system.
I tend to keep a controlled exterior. People usually think I have my ducks in a row. I could see how one might think I manage pretty well overall... but my ducks aren't even all in the same room.
What's shifted is that I've stopped trying to hide that in what I share. One series follows the roller coaster most people know but don't always name. It moves through the peaks and troughs of feeling completely stuck, struggling to keep moving, finding a real breakthrough, and finally having space to breathe and wander again. The other traces what happens when plans keep meeting reality and falling apart anyway. Both came from living those things, not just observing them. Less focused on perfecting the approach and more focused on what's actually real. That's where the growth happened.
I'm looking forward to sharing these pieces and their stories with more people. And continuing this into the next series. Exploring other ranges of emotions without worrying so much about having it all figured out first.
Because I think there are a lot of people carrying things quietly. Appearing fine. Managing. Ducks all over the place... some might even be geese. And if something here helps someone look inward, or recognize what someone close to them might be going through, or just feel like they don't have to pretend everything's together all the time... that's worth more than a perfect and polished version of myself being portrayed.
When people see the work I want it to be a reminder that going through hard times and having your plans disrupted... that's a given. That's just life. The cycle doesn't stop. What matters is how you move through it. You have a choice in that. Willpower is real β and when you're aware enough to see what's happening, you can act on it. Even when it seems impossible. The struggle doesn't mean you're failing... it means you're working at it. And you don't have to pretend it's fine or face it alone. Give yourself some credit. In my shoes that's one of the hardest things for me to do.
I'm glad I have great friends and family that support me. This photo of my family sits at my desk in the studio. They remind me that it's all relative. Paying attention and trying are more important than any benchmark. Don't brush off those who love and support you.
If any of this is landing for you, I'd love to hear it. Leave a comment or send me a message.