05/14/2026
I’m learning lately that motherhood doesn’t actually get easier the more they grow, the challenges just become more complex, more nuanced, and more heart wrenching.
The way I would do anything for them, for their safety and health. The way their well being keeps me up at night and consumes my every thought, the way their happiness is so much more important to me than my own, and yet forever intertwined….
The way I miss them when they fall asleep, despite having just yelled at them to do so…
The way becoming their mother cracked me open, splintered me into a million tiny pieces to pick up and put back together again, in a whole new way. The way I tried to hold on tight to who I was before only to find that a more compassionate, more authentic, braver, stronger version of myself was meant to emerge…
The way I want to teach them and guide them through life while still navigating my own like a novice, finding I’m learning as much from them if not more. The way it feels like I’m watching little pieces of my heart walk out into the world, wanting desperately to protect them from it all while also wanting them to live their own lives and experience it all…
Motherhood is the most exhausting, heart breaking, rewarding, mind blowing, devastating and fulfilling experience of my life, and I’m just so grateful for a love this profound. 💛
📷: MT. BAKER | 2023
