05/08/2026
First photo is the day after Gastric bypass surgery. The other is a few days ago. If I had known how this surgery would completely change my life in such a negative way I definitely would not have done it. I did it under medical advise by three different doctors as my Nissen Fundoplication/stomach had herniated into my esophagus and they told me that to fix it I needed Gastric Bypass Surgery especially due to my size and most the fat on my abdomen. How did three different doctors not catch that the nissen/stomach being herniated into my esophagus for 2 years would be the first missed clue in the cascade of issues that would have me fighting for my life...
I don't want to tell anyone not to do what you choose to lose weight and get healthy. Just make sure your choice is more about getting healthy vs the weight loss. With the increase in GLP and Gastric Bypass Surgeries, I am worried we are once again becoming a society that makes super skinny the goal in losing weight, not getting healthy. I have been 300 lbs, and I have been 106lbs. I understand the struggles of not being able to lose weight with diet and exercise. I understand food addiction and binge eating. I understand not liking your body and feeling like the biggest girl in the room. I understand, I really do, but....I also now understand dying to be skinny. Not being able to eat more than 400-600 calories a day. Having the same food needed to live be what's killing you. I understand seeing your skeleton like frail body in the mirror at hating what you see. The same body you hated at 300lbs you now hate at 106lbs..
Going to methods that can have dire complications to get skinny is not getting healthy. Your health, Your life is not worth losing to be skinny or fit what you think society finds beautiful. You will not love yourself more, or those around you will not love you more just because you got skinny. Find the way to love yourself where you are right now. I miss the fat girl because she was still happy, and she was not
