05/30/2026
Some reflection and a commitment today:
It's really strange being a therapist who works with children raising a high needs kid. In the therapy space, I am good at co-regulating, reflection, putting the puzzle pieces of emotions and behavior together. At home, it becomes clear that this part of me is a mask, and my core is still injured and feeling out of control from childhood.
Being an EMDR therapist the last 4 months has highlighted where my injuries actually are and what drives some of my worst behavior. Because sometimes my therapist self says things to clients and my inner child looks up, eyes wide, having needed to hear that all my life. And sometimes I respond so well to a client and my mind flashes to my child doing the same thing and my response being the exact opposite.
The places in my home, life, and therapy practice that feel most stressful and cause me to melt down in supervision or yell at my child and take away things he values, are the places that make me feel extremely out of control to me.
Powerlessness = anxiety
I'm committing to 1 artistic reflection each day this week on the negative idea that "I am powerless". I want to see what I can process and clear out using what I know about art, expression, therapy, and root cause work.
