01/12/2025
From Lydia's Journals:
Marriage: 6/6
Honeymoon 6/9
I hold soft flames on my tongue and chew on them like chewing gum. They burn the roof of my mouth but I won't spit it aloud right now. There's an inferno in your mouth, I can tell by the way you smile like it burns. You press your lips together like your kissing yourself to stop me from learning.
Your teeth wanna tattle and confess to me. Your molars are complaining and I can hear them weep. Sucking on fire while you're a liar who says they feel nothing. Your hand is watching mine like an LA Hawk. My hand is well aware that it's being stalked. Won't see a smile while I'm chewing on the flame, cause I've never been one to ruin the game.
He's a keeper. He's a believer. He's on the ground on his knees in a theater. "I could never keep her. I could never leave her." That's what he says to the neighborhood preacher. But he put us in a car, I don't know where we are, but I fell in love with the fever.
I watch us burn and fall. The heat is ten feet tall. The potential is bench-pressing us into the wall. And the flicker flames weave in through my teeth. If the hot gum were to slip out, where would we be?
Your teeth are on fire. Do you notice? No. Your mouth is burning. Do you notice? No. Your hair burns. My hair burns. Your skin burns. My skin burns. Do you feel anything? No.
If I tell you what I'm thinking, promise you won't tell yourself. If you tell me what you're thinking, I swear I won't tell myself.
He didn't listen to the preacher.
(Photo made with Midjourney AI; lyrics by Sofia Isella)