Krina's Dark Thoughts

07/28/2025

I was a child so bright and full of light looked up to you like a role model like someone i could trust and then it broke it crumbled like a piece of dried bread.

I heard you hurting my momma
Heard her take the hits for her babies
It broke me
Shattered me
Then i stood up put you on your ass for going after my little sibling i saw the anger in your eyes and i felt a rush no no more hurting my family

And then it turned on me wrists are touchy hair is sensitive.

You broke my trust in men i flinch at a guy over 6' instinct tells me bad but no

Not anymore

07/07/2025

Going shut down mode
Lips are sealed I'll barely talk
I'll say very little
I'll shut you out so easily
Cant even voice problems because people get upset about
Oh well I'll keep my mouth shut from now on
I'll cover my own bases
F**k off and leave me alone

06/16/2025

Its that time I'll pick up my smile and throw it on like always.
But today i feel it the snap ready to happen
But i gotta hold on gotta hold back
I'll plaster that smile on and hide behind it like always
Its what im good at
I laugh
I smile
And no one knows
No one see's
And thats what i get been faking it to make it almost all my life
Wont stop now
But i sure as hell know I'll break soon
And when i do
I can't promise if it'll be me standing there ir the little girl that lost everything so soon

06/07/2025

One week and two days
One week a d two days

I get to hold my breath not allow it out not allow it to break not like i did that day. The day you left us.
My brother my best friend not a day goes by that i dont feel lost not a day goes by that i dont blame myself. 'Why didnt i just go?' I know you wouldn't want me to i know your that angel with black wings watching me pushing me to do what i can to move forward, i know you sent me my brother my new best friend you didn't want me alone fighting my demons.

8 years you have been gone and I'll get your favorite drink and I'll drink it till i can't i may break down i may end up crying but that's okay i will survive because not just that day

Two years later after that you sent me a gift my little boy born the same day my pride and joy

I love you brother keep watching i see you some day

06/07/2025

"You twisted every word I ever said
Now the truth is tangled up inside my head
You f**k up again and then you blame me
Screaming that I'm crazy, maybe I am
I'm the one that's coming back for more
You're just breaking me, not any laws
Looking at me, tell me that I'm pretty
Swear you'd never hit me, I wish you would
'Cause if there was blood upon the floor
And I could see your fist went through the wall again
Maybe then I wouldn't have to fight no more
In this psychological war
If there were bruises on my skin
And they could see the pain you put me in again
Maybe then I wouldn't have to fight no more
In this psychological war"

"No, hold on contact
No, hold on go back
Don't you let him in again, no
'Cause soon he's gonna win again
No, hold on contact
No, hold on go back
Don't you let him in again, no
Soon he's gonna win again"

05/28/2025

My body was still warm as they said goodbye forgetting i had said " goodbye is forever always say bye" i was warm still could hear them but they didn't care

05/28/2025

" let me say bye to those that stood by me when I was a demon" I'd say looking straight in the angels eyes as i walk my body hurting as i go to say bye to those who cared and stood beside me when i was a wreck a mess and a whole lot of f**ked up mentally and physically and once that was done id say " alright take me "

05/26/2025

What do i do when the words are caught in my throat?
What do i do when i feel them slipping away?
Do i scream dont leave
Do i leave my hands at my side?
What do i do!
Everything is f**ked
Cant hold on when the things grounding me are slipping away.
My minds in a spiral
But outwardly im fine
Because i can hide
I can shield those from it
I'll shield you when you need it
I'll be there when you need it

But F**K i can't keep losing
Losing everything i hold dear
Its like telling the universe rip my heart out!
Go ahead tear it from my body
Want my soul to f**king take it!
Whats the point of it

Its already ripped already torn
A thread
A thread barely holding on
What more can i give?

So tell me
What do i do when the words are caught in my throat?
What do i when I feel them slipping away?

05/19/2025

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05/18/2025

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05/13/2025

Physiological Warfare Røry

"You twisted every word I ever said
Now the truth is tangled up inside my head
You f**k up again and then you blame me
Screaming that I'm crazy, maybe I am
I'm the one that's coming back for more
You're just breaking me, not any laws
Looking at me, tell me that I'm pretty
Swear you'd never hit me, I wish you would"

"Here's to the years that you broke me in private
And all of my fears about breaking my silence
Here's to the night that I finally left you for freedom
Your reputation, I left it un-shattered
For some f**king reason, I still think it matters
I'm on your side, though you left me to die, why?
'Cause if there was blood upon the floor
And I could see your fist went through the wall again
Maybe then I wouldn't have to fight no more
In this psychological war
If there were bruises on my skin
And they could see the pain you put me in again
Maybe then I wouldn't have to fight no more
In this psychological war"