11/06/2021
I know, I vanished for a while there… I’m not actually back for long now either. But I wanted to check in - about where I’ve gone and why after you all were so used to seeing me here every day making art and sharing life.
I worked hard and long building a business doing creative work - and just when things were taking off and it was time to burst into growth - hiring staff and getting a bigger space, I realized something. I realized that the thing I had been working so hard to create was not the actual thing I really wanted or needed. I didn’t actually want to run a business - I just wanted to prove to myself that I could. That my work was good enough for you guys. That people responded to it and it touched their lives in a positive way and made things just a little bit better if only for a moment. That I could do what I love and make a living doing it.
Ok. Proven. So?
After all the blood sweat and tears I was like, this is not all that. All the joy has left the building. I’m a one woman factory. Creativity- gone. Oh damn. Im all set with this. Got it.
The reality of being a wholesale handmade maker was very different than what I thought it would be. The constant pushing keeping up with orders, the repetition of wholesale, the deadlines and the worry - had fried my soul and the joy of being a maker that I loved to much. I had begun to flinch when I got a new order in my inbox rather than feeling happy. But WOW - my vendors are all so amazing and I’m so grateful for their understanding and support through this journey. What an honor it has been to get to know you all and your amazing shops that you put your hearts into. So inspiring.
I will be back in the studio again sometime- and I will share what’s happening when I get there. And it will be so juicy and easy and beautiful because my heart will be back in it and I can’t wait to connect with you again then.
From my light to yours - cheers. See you soon. ✨
