Man of Poetry

03/20/2026

While Elizabeth Sleeps

While the world is quiet and still tonight,
You drift through dreams in soft moonlight.
I lie here awake, just feeling you near,
Grateful for love that feels this sincere.
Even in silence, my heart speaks your name,
Through every heartbeat, it whispers the same,
Sleep peacefully, my love, don’t you fear…
I’ll be right here when you wake, always near.

03/04/2026

For You, Dad
I miss you.
I miss your presence, your voice, the way a hug from you could fix the world.
I miss the chance for you to meet my children.
But I see you in them.
I see you in the rules I set, the standards I hold, the care hidden in my strictness.
You live on through me, Dad — in ways no absence can erase.
I carry you every day.
Not broken.
Not lost.
Just loved, always

01/23/2026

Elizabeth,

I love you without restraint,
without reason,
without mercy.

You are the danger I choose,
the fire I step into willingly,
the beautiful madness
I would never escape—even if I could.

My heart does not belong to me anymore.
It answers only to your name,
beats only because you exist.

If loving you ruins me,
then let me be ruined—
I have never wanted anything
more completely than you.

Forever,
yours.

01/13/2026

12/04/2025

To Jacob and Lilymae

Jacob… Lilymae…
There’s so much I wish I could tell you
without my voice shaking.

The truth is, I’m trying to hold myself together,
but not being with you
has torn pieces out of me I don’t know how to fix.
I walk around with this hollow feeling in my chest,
like something vital is missing —
because it is.
It’s you.

Jacob, when I get to see you,
it’s like someone switches the lights back on inside me.
You don’t realise it,
but your smile drags me out of places I don’t want to be.
And every time I have to let you go again,
it feels like I’m breaking for the second time that day.

And Lilymae…
God, it hurts to even say your name sometimes.
Not because of you —
but because of how little I get to see you,
how many moments I’m missing,
how many things I’m not there for.
I carry that guilt like a weight on my back.
I’d give anything — anything —
to be closer to you,
to not feel like a stranger to your days.

I know you won’t understand any of this now.
Maybe you won’t for years.
Maybe you’ll wonder where I was,
or why things are the way they are.
And that thought…
it kills me in ways I can’t soften.

But here’s the truth, even if it’s messy and painful:
I never stopped loving you.
Not once.
Not for a second.
Even when life pulled us apart,
even when I felt like I was losing you
piece by piece,
I never let go of you in my heart.

I break for you.
I ache for you.
I hope for you.
And I will always, always be your dad —
even from a distance
that’s slowly destroying me.

If you ever read this one day,
I hope you’ll understand
that losing time with you
was never my choice,
never what I wanted,
and never something I’ll forgive myself for.

You are everything I will ever get right.
Even in the broken parts of me,
you’re the only thing that still feels whole.