12/04/2025
Today makes one year since my car accident.
One year since everything flipped upside down. One year since an MRI showed something that’s been affecting me every single day.
Yesterday I had another procedure on my neck and spine. It went well, but I’m hurting. I’m exhausted. I slept on my mom’s couch because I couldn’t even get comfortable in my own bed.
I wish I could say I’m better now. I wish I could say I had some big comeback or glow up to brag about. But the truth is… I don’t.
Some days I can barely focus. Some days I can’t get my work done. Some days I don’t want to be around anyone. I’ve pulled back from a lot of things and honestly… I’ve pulled back from myself too.
And people left.
People told me I’ve “changed,” that I’m not who I used to be — and that broke me in a way I wasn’t prepared for. It made me feel alone. It made me depressed. It made this whole year even heavier.
But I’m grateful — deeply — for the ones who stayed.
The ones who didn’t give up on me while I’m still trying to figure out how to live in a body that doesn’t feel the same.
And to the small group I found through gaming and livestreaming… you’ve shown up for me in ways I didn’t even know I needed.
I’m still healing.
Still hurting.
Still here. 🖤
