Phantom Raps

04/24/2024

Sometimes I pretend you made it to the army
You made some friends
And we lost touch
You graduated basic with flying colors
You showed the world you could be tough
You did things no one ever expected
Made it out
And started life
You grew bigger than the mountains you climbed
Overcoming with every stride
So many people must be proud of you
I know that I still am
Wherever you are you still protect me
The best way that you can
Either way you fought a war
That so many will never see
Behind the lines or closed doors
You were the best you could be
Maybe I am stupid for giving in to my fantasy
But if I pretend you’re in the army
I don’t have to think about
How you’re no longer here with me

11/10/2023

Ive had a lot of friends over the years
Some closer than others
All of them swapping stories that I never mixed up
I could write books full of lifetimes of happiness, sadness and all the in between
And so I do
I let their stories inspire me, encourage me, devastate me and bring me back to life
My pen dances across the paper finding its steps along the way
My mind is blank as I let the ink run out of its vessel
Creations unfold before me never revealing who or what or where they came from
Fragments of the chatter all around us
Collected onto a single page
A new story emerges
One I was never told
But inside I see the parts of all those who chose to share with me
What it means to be them
What it means to survive and to die and to live
Some part of me hopes they will notice too
To see how much they meant to me
That I still think about the times we had
And that
Even if we no longer speak
I still speak of them
Like a whisper in the wind
Saying I’m still here
You will not be forgotten

Phantom

08/11/2023

I get told what to do
How to act
How to appear
How to sound
And how to think

I get told not to live the life others want you to

I get told to listen to advice

But how do I know when to listen and when not to

When to live and when to die

I think I need to listen to myself for once

I block out the noise and hear myself whisper

I’m tired now

04/22/2023

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Have you ever seen a ghost out of the corner of your eye?
Just a shadow just a figment of reality its why
They will never know I’m coming
Till I’m running the inside
And by then I’ll have them twisted
Till they’re standing right behind
- Phantom

03/19/2023

New poem coming soon 🏳️‍⚧️

03/14/2023

Her heart is like a flower,
Plucked from a garden, based on its beauty
With no thought of the repercussions.
Used for all it had until the water turned brown and the leaves fell off.
Replaced as easily as it was picked.
Proving yet again that she was something to be used and discarded.

01/11/2023

Passage of Time
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For the first time in a while I noticed change

As i talked to my sister in law like time hadn’t passed and we hadn’t aged

before things went to s**t
before walls were re painted

But I still hear the pain when she mentions the name

of a person we lost
I wonder does she blame me?

as much as everyone else

like I had something to gain
from the nights spent awake

feeling scars on my veins

from things used to numb them

Always planning my escape from

the words on the page that have doused me in shame

Its an up and down rate of how fast time moves

I paint the sky red and I still feel the blues

My chest feels like lead I search for the bruise

Its worth being said that I crave the abuse

Really I crave the affection that leads me to heaven

As the demons they lead me to hell dressed as brethren

I stew in the flames while they bake my depression

7 layers like a cake that was cooked to perfection

As I climb through the circles the pressure builds in my head

And I start to have thoughts that I’m better off dead

But whose burden is that?

I have no one to fault

To restart the cycle

Unlearn what I’ve taught

To everyone around me Ive given the talk

About living life to the fullest even when you are stopped

brought down to your knees by a thought passing by

To feel lumps in your throat and the sting in your eyes

To witness the beauty as if you were saying goodbye

To hold on to life when you’re living a lie

You’re not living at all youre just acting alive

Doing what you can to try and survive

But you die every day

You’re getting too tired

I say no you must stay

I cant let you expire

But I guess Im a liar for preaching a truth

That I don’t wanna learn

So I’ll make an excuse

That I’m plenty okay

After all

This is just a poem

A story I’ve written

It is One often told

But not many listen

So I guess it gets old

To hear words on repeat
leaving grooves in your skull

But I can’t bear to sit and stay quiet

When people are dropping like flies
In a world that is silent

But people always speak up when saying how selfish it is to leave

So let me remind you

Its not easy to grieve

When someone is gone they will never come back

You can be mad or have whatever feelings you have

But those around you who have felt the same

Will always remember the words you chose to say

01/06/2023

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01/04/2023

Idealogical Death 
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If you were on your last breath
Hole in your chest
Blood pouring out
Shirt soaking wet
What would you chose to say?
Would you like to confess?
All the stuff that you’ve done
all the ways you’ve been blessed?

Would you reach out your hand
To the empty blue sky?
Would you scream would you cry
For the life you will lose?
Would you take out your phone
To tell loved ones goodbye?
Would you send out a tweet for the last couple views?

Tell me would you pray
Finally take up religion?
Would you beg for forgiveness
For the way you were sinning?
Would you climb to your knees
Shouting praise to unknown?
Would you sit there and question why you were alone?

See I want you to wonder
I w**k you to think
Let your life flash in your eyes
Before you’re on the brink
Then sit down and focus and ask yourself this are you currently happy with the life you have lived?

Its really that simple
a yes or a no
Its the closing of curtains
On your puppet show
No one left to pull strings
Just you and your thoughts
Either you start to make changes
Or you let yourself rot

Take a risk take a chance
Before fate take’s your hand
Because no matter how lucky
Your end can’t be planned.

12/19/2022

Dropping after the 1st now. I don’t wanna release something that isn’t my best work… it’ll be worth the wait

❄️ dropping this month ❄️

12/04/2022

❄️ dropping this month ❄️

12/03/2022

Hey everyone!!
Now that I‘m almost graduated I’m getting extra serious about music and spoken word. If 2023 isn’t my year then I’ll take the focus elsewhere but I have a good feeling. Much love!

-Phantom